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Friday, January 28, 2005
{ 6:20 PM on '' }


heyy. i can't believe i blogged almost everyday last month.
and noww.?
once in a century.
hmmm i juz read some poems.
hahas.
are poems tat strong?
yes.
man..
poems are sweet and LoVeLy.
some can be really sad and blahblah.
im starting to like them..
nowadays so many pple are composing poems and stuff...
impressingg.
with their english and the depth of meaning in it,
its really impressive!
hmmm.. maybe i should write one too. hahas.
*ponders on how bad i was in english*
maybe not.
haiss..
poemspoemspoems.
REALLY NICE>
yupp.

yeah. and ya noe..
wad is a blog actually for?
a personal reccount of the dayy?
a de-stresser?
a diary?
hmmms.
i think writing a diary is kinda cool too.
and it really can make you express your thoughts and feelings.
juz pen it out on a nice little cute bookk.
and there is your life storyy.
hais..
i really muz express wad i feel sometimes man..
hais...
tat's y pple.
i ENCOURAGE all of ya to get a diary or somethingg..
hahas.
although im kinda new to this kinda thing,
i think it really helps though..
yupp.


now hearing some songs.
some songs juz make me feel all so moody..
and my feelings juz all go downdowndown.
and i start thinking bout memories in the past.
sigh.
sometimes i question myself.
wad am i really doing?
izzit the right thing?
am i pathetic?
am i suppose to listen?
am i behaving like some kinda slave?
am i not hving decisions of my own?
am i juz being too emotional?
am i taking things lightly?
am i suppose to feel this way?
am i suppose to be doing wad im doing now?
am i really weak?
wad is frenship suppose to mean?
im confused!
ok not confused.
but this is funny.
i mean..
ah i dunno.
shouldn't think so much anyway.
but sometimes i juz feel miserable.
is miserable too strong a word to use?
sigh..
the tune of songs really make me feel so low.
the power of music.
man...
its like hving depression.
i still remember hving depression last time.
i was appalled by my depression-ness.
i didn't noe i, cheryl wong, could hv a depression.
hais..
maybe i shouldn't hv done the things i've done..
i dunno wad am i thinking....
it seems kinda wrong if you look at it in another perspective..
man..
Problems are juz everywhere.
feelings are juz so fragile..
like a new born baby..
it is something so easily shaken.
when you're happy,
you juz express it with tat gleaming smile,
when you're down and
youu're crying your heart out..
nobody understands.
Feelings are juz so unpredictable.
you don't know when it comes and goes,
you don't know wad you'd do next,
you're so lost and confused,
juz feeling like charging through a wall
and let your misery disappear.
why are some pple so emotional?
i always thought bout tat..
when i see them writing with so much depth,
it juz makes me wonder...
do teenagers all feel lyk tat?
so much unnecessary feelings all arousing within them inside.
now i noe it all.
ok maybe not now.
i knew it some time ago,
how they actually feel .


i realised one thing bout myself..


im easily shaken .


my emotions.


it juz comes when i feel all so helpless.
its kinda shocking.
but its natural..rite??

i sometimes don't know who to blame for all these.
myself or the other party.
its juz one way complicating thing to figure out.
with so much argument from both sides.
its like a debate.


is feeling emotional stupid?

hais.
i guess im better now. i hope.
im having mood swings yeahh? :)
hmmms.
so pple.
learn to express your feelings.
lols.

anyways, so much for those emotional talking of mine..
hmms..
i can't believe it.
3 truth pple are way crazyy.
lols.
i'll juz see wad would happen on monday morning.
lols.
hope its not gonna be the worst morning of the entire century!
oooopps.
okkies.
i think i better stop now,
or else you'll go goondo soon.



[lalalalla... the past. ][the present][the future] is all up to us to make out of it.
er izzit a correct theory?
oh well..

FEELINGS OF MISERY BECAME PART OF ME.


out.

















Saturday, January 22, 2005
{ 5:20 PM on '' }


i've not been blogging again as usual.
im juz busyy. plain busyy.
school's driving me nuts!
and i've spent like 4 hours serching for some crappy chemistry thingyy.
ARGH!
i can't find anything.
its all so chiM.
beyond anyone's understanding.
okk im exaggerating.
but argh.
its juz REAL real hard to understand.
and you noe?



im pissed .



stupid work.
hais.
i juz feel like going out.
but dad scolded me and
said tat im not losing out on anything
by not going out.
true.
but im always at home!!
argh.
wadever.
i dunno how to comprehend anythingg.


IM DROWNED with workk and sorrows.
i can't breathe.


argh.
-trying to enjoy the joy of staying at home-


OH PLEASE.


-trying-


hais. i think im a bit too lame here. ah well.




a m i m i s s i n g o u t o n s t u f f?

Friday, January 14, 2005
{ 10:47 PM on '' }


harlows.
school school school.
there's homework EVERYDAY.
everyday.
and i dun get enough sleep!
this is so no good.
and best of all,
i got a headache now!
yes!
right now!
how great can tat be.?

hmmm.. my class.
still oK la.
but i feel so different..
aaww,,
save me!
im so TIRED..
had netball at kallang..
wasn't so bad ..
and our competition is next wed!!
so fast!!
i better train my shooting..
hais..
really hope everyone gives in their all for netball!!!
go go go...!
and PEOPLE.

i think im sick.
headache!
headache!
headache!
go away go away!
im tired.
BYE.




Monday, January 10, 2005
{ 5:55 PM on '' }


hi !!!
im BACK!
sorryy for not bloggingg..
cause i was kinda busy,
and kinda lazy too... =x
ahahhahaass.

hmmm..
school was OK man!
but im trying HARD to adapt to my class,
3TRUTH!
sighh...

anyways, the sec 3 camp during wed to fri was alright laa..
did alot of thingss..
kayaking was great!
hahahass.
we had high ropes, rockclimbing, team buildingg..
blahblahhss...
i didnt get to do rock climbing!!
was complaining to myself...
hahas. x)
had campfire on the last nite..
erm. quite short laa..but it was OK.
alright.
yup.
did alot of cheers too!
hahahahasss....
kinda silly.
yep.

and u noe wad after the camp??
i slept from 2pm to 8 am.
WHOA.
uNbELieVaBLe!!
ahahas.
den in the afternoon went to FYF..
not too bad for a start. x)

okk talk about today!
hahas.. i was laughing at the maths teacher!
i dunno y.. but i think she's funnyy..
you noe those kinda old ladies who are the chubby kind..
and hv a high voice...
hahahass....
tat's her!
YEP.
SCHOOL WAS OK!

BUT pple,
im afraid tat the teachers dun like me!
ahhaahas.
cause i didn't do anything as a monitress YET.
wad a thing to sayy.
STUPID.

wad am i saying?
hmmmss....
ignore tt.

okies! till here! see ya'll foLks!

Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma

Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.