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Saturday, July 30, 2005
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yes. i just like this part of my room. yes it doesn't look amazing.

{ 1:16 PM on '' }


So today was 'Meet the Parents' day.
i was kinda shocked we needed to stand while the teacher was speaking to the parents.
goodness me, that was kinda lame.
anyway, we sat on the floor while Mr Koh was talking about stuff.
we were quite noisy actually, but oh well, we are students right?

okay my dad was asking, in fact, quite a number of questions..
well, it was kinda like scary for me cause you wouldn't know what qns my dad would ask right.
hahas nah but it all turned out well, soon, parents were also shooting the teachers there with questions.
it was rather a debate i tell you.

That aside, my dad was satisfied with my form teacher, he said he was very steady!
not bad eh.
so after the meet the parents, my dad brought me to coffee bean!
i just suggested to him coffee bean and he went cause i didn't wanna go back so early.
so i had mocha and muffin.
my dad had cheesecake!
the cake was super nice!
but after awhile of eating you'll feel like puking..
yum.
all the fats.

oohwell, so i have to take over Jamin's place for host, i hope it'll not be too bad.
sigh.
my life is totally, i don't know.
so disorganised.
i don't know where to start.
it's like im not diong the things im suppose to do.
there's ths lazy spirit inside me that i wanna run away from.
and i can't accept some things i see.
i mean, i don't know how to feel.
This is really getting tougher.
i thought i would be able to go thorugh it,
but i realised im weak.
not that weak, but in a sense.
lol.
yeah.

WHY.

i can't stand what i have gone through sometimes.
its all so fast, sudden, unexpected.

im getting wild here.


DO NOT DISTURB.

Friday, July 29, 2005
{ 6:27 PM on '' }


hola.

a couple of things to share about today.
Well, i had PFT today.
Due to my broken ankles in the month of April, i gotta take it today.
let me just say, im so unhappy with my standing broad jump!
i can't jump for NUTS.
serious!
what a shame!
i cannot jump the distance equal to my height, just say i have short legs.
or let me say, i can't jump.

blahs.
and anyway. i think the pe teachers are kind of like..irritating?
its like they call up people to take the PFT but when they test us and stuff,
they do i too efficiently and promtly that you feel that in their minds,
their just saying aloud: stop wasting my time.
hello?!
they seem so.. bochap in a sense.
that's how i think LA.
yeah.
anyway, they should make us feel more welcomed in a sense.
not just like make us think we're pests wasting their oh-so-precious time to do more important things, like going home and sleep?
okay that's not true.
im just trying to get my point here.

AND,


what would you do if you saw a 20 cent coin lying on the floor?


guess what happened?
i was about to give a call to Lousia at toa payoh interchange using the public phone, but i haven got a 10 cent coin, so i just took out a 20 cent coin instead.
and because of my better fingers, the coin slipped out and rolled on the floor.
Some noticed, but walked away.
there's these two women walking.
one kept looking at it and probably telling the other about the rollin away coin.
and then, the coin cam eot a stop infront of a secondary school couple.
i saw what went on.
btw, i was actually like walking towards the coin but obviously no one noticed.
yeah.
and anyway, one of the wome, whom i just mentioned about, almost wanted to pick up the coin, thinking it was her fren's coin.
OR, i guess, she just needed the 20 cent coin to make a phone call!
tat is SO called stealing.
but in the end, she did not take it, leaving the coin behind for the couple.
so the guy took it and i thought he was going to the office to give it back.
how thoughful.
but WRONG.
he went there cause his gf wanted to top up her card.
i think they were hesitating whether to give the coin to the office, but in the end, they kept it!
Finders keeper, losers weepers.
haha, how true.

and there goes my 20cents.
great.
ok its just 20 cents.
but seriously, its just 20 cents.
its kinda corny if you go up to the worker in the office and say:"someone dropped 20 cents."
ok the worker would take it. but if no one collects it, she'll just keep it, or maybe put it in the topping up card cashier box or smth.
Also, going up to the worker saying that someone dropped 20 cents is kinda silly.
cause back to square one, ITS JUST 20CENTS.

but a food for thought.
if you keep it, its still called stealing.
right?
so the best thing is that people, leave it where it was.
or maybe give it to some lost and found thing.
but it still will be stolen in a sense.
so the best thing is,
do not look at the floor while you are walking, like ya no one really looks down unless you're in a bad mood or you are bored, or alone, or whatever.
so, the morale of this is, do not drop anything, cause there'll be someone who on that day, committing a sin.
STEALING.
hahas.

sounds kinda silly but true.
okay why am i being such a pain over 20 cents?
just a reminder to you guys!!

yeah. and today, ic ame home at 4.20pm/
i really gotta lose the pounds.
i was even thinking or running every Friday!
and not to mention there'll be my 2.4 km run next monday in the afternoon!
i need to train up.
but just saying it is easy.
its the doing part.
ya duh everyone knows.
but people like me is the 'say no do' kind.

okay my english is kinda getting out of hand here.
i can't believe Victoria wants to speak proper English w/o Singlish at all.
its first time i've came upon such a person.
well, being in Singapore, kinda hard lah.

so i was spending my time reading through blogs, or should i say just browsing through, and this is what
Lydia's post read:


ignorance is the best way to hurt someone.


FOOD FOR THOUGHT AGAIN.

what do you think?


i want more from You oh Lord.
Discipline me.
Change me.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005
{ 9:27 PM on '' }


greeting my friends!

its been a looong time,.
school's really keeping my busy, with all the work.
okay probably not cause i'm always wasting my time at home. bad.
anyway, this week have really passed really fast.
and there are many things for me to do this week and the next month!
man!

there are many things going on. hmmm maybe i should record it down

29thJuly:PFT 5 items
1Aug: 2.4km run
3and4Aug: umpire course
13Aug: Pesta Sukan
11and 15Aug :umpire course
15Aug-18Aug: COMMON TEST
26Aug:piano practice at exam venue
29Aug: PIANO EXAM!

man. okay i know its not really ALOT like most people who always stay back in school,
but.. whoa,
these are important dates !
hais.
please pray for me people!
thanks ;)

ohwell. anyway, today, my class went to some chhinese thing atchinatown, about Singapore's samsui women and people and the poor times.
yeah, and we were suppose to eat some thing which was like.. not really appetising.
ohwell.
and today i spent like ages at Watson's because Joyce was in the shop buying stuff.
waste my precious time!
oh ya and i didn't mention!

Last Saturday, it was really funny.
louisa,michelle,Jeralyn and me waited for 124, cause we wanted to go town
athen later. we changed our minds and headed for the 145 bus-stop to head to toa payoh.
hoho guess what?
we were fellowshipping there for half an hour because the bus had no petrol or mth.
we waited for HALF AN HOR!
sooo long.
so, we took bus 21.
and michelle, who was obviously, the one who was playing with uncooked rice, was throwing it at everyone.
the most shots hit from her was me,. cause im always the target!
hahas.
yeah and a grain went into my mouth,thanks!
hahs we had ereally a good time playing with uncooked rice on the bus!
hahahahahas. it was rather childish, but i guess i learnt the emaning of treasuring your youthfulness.
which includes childishness.
hahs. it was really funny.
and you know what happened?
when we decided to stop playing already,
michelle accidently dropped the whole uncooked rice onto the bus 'floor'!!
LOL.
it was such a good laugh!
btw, the uncooked rice, ok grains i should say, was in a toy egg.
yeah, we should have taken pictures then!
it was really humourous!
i will definately rememebr that day.
Friends really keep us happy! :)
thanks guys!

yeah.
and on Saturday,
I realised some things that i should let go.
SIGH.
its always difficult.
ohwell, looking back,
i feel so dumb at times.
This is such a weird feeling.
Emotions are sometimes so annoying.
its annoys me.
hey the word 'annoy' sounds rather cute right?
lol.
okay if there are other words to describe 'annoy'
and hey, i need to have a wide range of vocabulary please, cause im running out of interesting words.
or you should say verbs.
cause my english is not so interesting anyway.

and talking about food!
ohhlala.
i had pastamania with my mum after netball.
like there goes my time of wasted exercising!
anyway, pastamania serves great food!
and i love the pizza there!
ok i should say i love anything which associates with bread.
oh save me people.
bread is so high in carbo!
hello!
and im not exactly encouraged to eat bread!
look at me!
aaahh.
anyway there is netball tmr.
man.
it'll be tiring.

i hope i'll enjoy school everyday! and look forward to things everyday.
i'll live life to the fullest!
Join me people!
yeah right.
how can i live life to the fullest when i don't even know how to?

mmm.
life is interesting.
and it came to me that there are alot alot of things to talk about.
that is why you see talkative people around.
i mean things whoch make sense, that is.
i mean life, ambitions, students, teachers, interset, political issues....
many things.
and how could i forget!
COMPLAINTS!
that's something whoch keeps me going on in a conversation.
HAHAS.
yeah.

ok till here!

btw parents react too strongly when they haven't even heard the truth about things.
-.-

Friday, July 22, 2005
{ 6:49 PM on '' }


what a week!
its been quite a long week, is it?
hmmm.
i forgot what happened.
what poor memory i got.
i can't remember things in the past, and what i did..
its so lousy.
i mean, this means i don't have any memories. somebody save me!
please feel sad for me.
MEMORIES.
i got none.

ahwell, i can't go on the way i'm living.i need a fresh change! yeah!
like i always say that but, i don't do anything.

okay i kinda remember what happened in the week.
So, our seating arrangment have been changed, but its only a temporary one i suppose,
and everyone's kinda like unhappy on the first day the arangement was being made.
and the next day or two, some went back to sit with their own friends and stuff.
Well, really, nothing can please the whole lot of 38 boisterous students here.
They have their own opinions on things, and these opinions oppose each other.
and obviously everyone wants things to go THEIR way. (yeah im like that, sometimes right?)
yeah, and its kinda difficult.
i mean, its give and take, as said by Victoria, and yeah, nobody can do it.
i mean,some remain quiet and just go on with decisions, but some, man, they just HAVE to comment and comment, like we have commited a crime or something.
okay that sounds so out of point.
anyhow, ya, i have to say, handling the class is just tough job.
i admire M Koh(my form teacher)
He's the kind who is fierce,funny,crappy and youthful?although he claims to be a dinosaur,
but he really knows how to communicate with students.I admire people who have the ability to be firm and funny! Students would respect him, as well as poke fun at him, at the right time of course.
yeah and he speaks well, i guess.. He makes English lessons a pleasure. He taking over the class is already a joy to everyone in the class cause he really humour we students.! its surprising to see teachers acting like that nowadays. He's really funny! yeah. and all of us look forward to english and CME.
these two periods are the ones which keep us going!
woohoo!

talk about leadership now.
i really think this is a talent that someone have.
i mean, okay those with loud voices, obviously can lead cause everyone will be able to hear them.
and those who are firm and decisive, obviously others would respect you for that.

leaders.

what are they really made of?

i have this thing in me that is really bad in a way.
When other people get praises , i tend to , ya know, feel envious? and somehow, also feel that why don't they praise me of this? it sounds really stupid but , i always want to achieve and show others i can do it too! maybe only a thought for that short moment, but this whole thing sounds so loser.
i have no idea how to explain why is it 'loser-ish'.

wellwell...
i want to change my skin, cause im feeling kinda bored of it.
okay!
i need to spend time productively now!
so i'll see ya'll next time!

Saturday, July 16, 2005
{ 11:43 PM on '' }


ok i can't stand it when vulgarities are being used in ever sentence or every conversation!
like hello?
its such a sore to the ears.
ui can't stnad it.
and when pple type its just all the vulgarities coming out.
yes i know its a habit and blah but can change right?
and its so not the best way to show your anger cause there's a thousand and one other ways to show your anger w/o using such
filthy language.
its not cool.
just because everyoneis using it, tat's why it plays no significance in the society now.
when students, especially, use these sick words, some would say, its normal.
goodness.
why is our society becoming more and more uncivilised?
i mean, who doesn't know its a vulgarity thing?
and still use it cause ?
oh i use it so often tat i dun even know im using it.
oh its how i communicate with my friends lah.
aiya what's wrong with you? you're so loser.(i'm not sure bout this statement)
oh i use it when im angry.

i think its because the whole world is using it, and then the word influence has to be present,
and wala, an uncivilsed society has been formed.
sigh.
vulgarities cannot, and can never become a common language used.
just think about it, when i was in primary school,
i don't even know vulgarities,
secondary school?
yes , all the &^#&$%@ words comes about.
its such a pain to the ears.and eyes.
even the innocent get influenced.
and mind you its not a trival matter.
it affects the mind and the way you think.
ergh.
languages.
it is given to use it in a good and sensible way,
and not creating our own languages to insult, scold, or even, communicate.
i just feel pain for those who use it as their everyday language.
WHY!
why do people have to use it?
i think most pple use it everyday.
you find it normal?
it is not.
don't you find yourself being rude, or maybe, are you not guilty, or smth?
oh blame it on bad-temper.
OHPLEASE.

maybe some can't control their anger.
ohwell.
its just another world out there.

okay enough about the talking thing.
i hope nobody gets offended !

today.
hahs had service.
it was kind of good.the sermon. yeah.
and then, i was my cousin, Abigail's 10 b'day!
it was kinda funny to be obsevant, with louisa and lynette.
hahas.
we sure do have a sense of humour!
ok kidding.
ok being in the birthday party, is like, looking at the past when you were young.
all those silly games we played, and laughing at things, which now, teenagers find it lame, and would roll their eyes off.
ha, looking at those children were really such joy! be it good, or bad.
ok i sound kind of mean,'sorry.
yeah. childhood days,'
my brother was so naughty today.ok you would say everyday.
he like pulled my cousins hair! he always do.
she's Bernice, and like, ya i really pity her.
and my brother is like, girl crazy i guess!
he goes around hugging girls!!
can you believe it? I as a sister, as a loving sister,(proved in the picture!) would do my duty to discipline him to a refine young man.
HAHA.

yeah.
and i've been reading this book "Maine squeeze"
the title sounds weird, but its just some island where 4 best friends do stuff and blahblah.
i just started reading.
ha.
im going to become a bookworm!
yeah right.
its only one book.
but im gonna finish reading it!
yes!

okay, till here.
x)

{ 12:37 AM on '' }


finally i was able to get to the blogger page.
i have, right now, tired and strained eyes.
man, was on the com for 3 hours already! goodness! ya to some of you its just peanuts cause your eyes are glued 24/7,
but i can feel my eyes popping out!
aah. i really don't wanna wear spects, although it can be the first accessary on my face.
im now on my routine of looking through blogs and friendster profiles,
why am i killin time like that? such a waste of time!
hais!

i want to change. but im not showing effort in any way.
i can't stand thins.
oh guess what? i'm sick..
no one believes me cause i don't look sick.
great.
what kinda theory is that!
lol.
*coughs*
see.

aah my eyes. badbadbad.
hey actually i really do pity teachers !
They are the most vulnerable people to get criticised and bullied.
there are like more than a thousand students who recognize them, and definately,
there'll be gossips and insults and comments made about them..
either good or bad.
but mostly bad right?
students.
ohwell.. i wonder how's my dad doing in his school...hahs.
teachers.
why do they want this job?
i think talking in front of the class is not easy.
Students keep quiet and listen either because you have a loud voice,
or out of respect, or out of pure obedience,
or after a long scolding, they decided to shut up.
and being in front of the clast talking at firsty can be quite intimidating,
if everyone's silent and no one's talking.
and if the class is too noisy, you'll just have the guts to smack them with the duster .
hahas.
i can't imaging a teacher doing that!
hey that reminds me of pri school!
the teacher, MISS TAN, said she threw chalk and students who are talking.
like hello? it can kill!
hahs.

that's what i love about my pri school
they discipline us well!
hahs.
maybe that's what i think cause i have been, for the past 14 years,
a rule-abiding student!
cheers for me!

but i did something not so good.
i did not attend animae thing which i was supposed to today.
but come to think of it, why do the library CCA have to come up with stuff like that?
i know its all for sport, but with the 'oh so overwhelming' response of the school, i doubt it wwill work.
okay maybe their just giving it a try, oh well.
seriously, i think the students in this school are just so.. unresponsive.
for example, prize giving.
the claps are like so soft, that even i myself clapping can beat the claps of the whoils school, or should i say, the minority claps of theirs, cause majority of them don't clap cause they find it a waste of time.
i feel the pain of the prize-winners, cause they do not have utmost support and appreciation from the school students for their effort!
can you believe it?
i mean, if you were in their shoes, it feels kinda terrible.

ok i can divert my attention from teachers, to pri school, to prize giving ceremonies,
how about that!
that's what i call, impressivo.
x)
ok that was suppose to be lame, cause i guess some pple would be rolling their eyes.

oh ya, and did i tell you? i am suppose do my NAPHA test!
you think i should?
what if my ankle sprains again?
obviously the whole world would think im lying because im still playing netball,
but, what about my ANKLES? ohwell.
i need to make decisions!
ah yes yes im indecisive.
why?!
forget about it.
today's english compo test was kinda WHOA cause im afraid that i wasn't writing what the qn wants me to.
i wasn't writing about a story, but my own reflections.
oh no.
i hope Mr Koh would show liniency.
ok wrong spelling?
don't tell me about it.

oohhhhh so its the end of the week again.
REALLY time flies!
and next year, o-levels!
like haha cause i'll be like so stressed!
oh no.... i better study hard now!
but im always the talk no action kind.
what a pig.

to all readers out there who have been aware of my bad bad flaws, please help me as i change to become a person better than you.
haha.

kidding.

but yeah, help me.
like if i say i wanna do maths today, you'll sit with me and teach me, to make sure i complete it,
and if i say i want to eat noodles, you make sure i eat noodles,
and if i say i wanna buy bread from bread talk, stop me, cause that's where i gain all the fats!
so if i put on.. BEWARE.

aiya i've already put on anyway, from sec1. ok DUH just trying to comfort my self cause most pple gain weight from tat time to now.

so yeah. tat's all i have for you today.

my wonderful post!


*oh ya, and im not eating nougats already! yes! no more 1.5g of fats for every pack!

good night.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005
{ 7:54 PM on '' }


it was kind of a great day today !
i coincidently met my primary school mate at bishan food court! ya its ELAINE.
hah! was kinda shy to meet her cos ya know the feeling of metting along-lost friend?
yeah. thank goodness she was super friendly!
talked a accompanied each other for the next 2 hours or so..
it was really really great to see her!
she said i was not as loud as last time, and was kinda quiet.
oh . cheryl has matured.
okays but i guess primary school years were the best years of my life as well!
i just need to recall many more memories of those younger days.

i MISS my primary school mates.
being in a girl school is great!
im missing it!

sigh! this school, kcp, is kinda..okay, but, i don't get it why do students want to tarnish the name of the school!
Our school ain't that great to start with, and with a number of achievements from CCA groups and stuff, we definately can pull the school's name to a higher level.!
i was really proud of kcp !
but on tuesday, Mr LOw, our principal, was rather disappointed.ofcourse.
with students making a big scene at J8. and puffing away?
hello?
i just don't get what do teenagers think noeadays.
is smoking that great?
why do others wanna just get attention like that?
do they want to seem to appear greater than others?
do they want to be seen as 'cool' and not 'loser'? (duh)
do they think that smoking makes them even more 'cooler' so that the people around them would fear them because of seeing them in their rowdy attitude+the so so cool smoke coming out of their mouths?

they just feel insecure.

that's what i think.

okay you pple might be wondering why am i suddenly so goody goody to the school?
like i want the school to have a good impression of me or smth..
no la!

i just wanna say this cos i don't see any reason why teenagers will want to act this way.
perhaps.

tatars.

Sunday, July 10, 2005
{ 12:32 AM on '' }


OKAY GREAT, i just posted something actually but its all gone!
im so pissed!

ah nvm.
its just a post. yeahyeah comforting myself. get a life! aaah!

okays today was the funfair. ya. not as good as the one in 2003.
cause there was hardly any spirit of a fun fair there.
lame.okays anyways, was there, and someone was trying to avoid me, i really can't be bothered.
ya anyway was there.
teachers dunked.
MR koh was really kinda poor thing cause he had to be dunked, and what more, we students like made him famous for a day with him featured in a slimming thing. it was so gross but funny.
our stall's business was not really that good.
at first when Mr koh said it was a corner stall, we were like..'oh no, sure no business'.
but i was rather comforted when i realised that the stalls by the road had not many customers. oopps.
yeahs.

and anyway, the dunking machine.
poor teachers.
crazy students.
they can just hang around there for hte whole day and see teachers get dunked.
how sadistic.
ok it may seem funny awhile, but not like when you've seen a thousand and one teachers being dunked.
ohwell.

my main thing today was at the bus-stop at gardens.
there's this MAN singing. ALOUD.
ok i thot he would stop but he kept continueing.
i was staring at him but obviously he was too engrossed with his high pitched song to even notice me.
he kept singing.
and then, to my horror, anoither voice came along.
man.
i was like 'is everybody in serangoon were going to join in?'
exaggerating. i didn't think of that anyway.
okay and it was he's wife,
they were singing.
in PUBLIC.
can they consider singing at home?
it'll be much appreciated.
hahs.

yeah and service was great today.
i love it.

ah i still preferred the post i typed earlier whioch was unfortunately gone.
-.-

ah enough bout it.
till here.

Friday, July 08, 2005
{ 11:30 PM on '' }


i've been thinking, why do i feel so empty sometimes.
aaaaahhhhh.

i just don't know how to prioritize my time.
what a fool.
i realised i don't learn my lesson.
i need to get into many trials before i finally learn my lesson.
this is so lame.
why can't i just be more disciplined and stuff?

btw, what is friendship?
blah i feel so desperate.!
eee.
i just need to let go my feelings.
thank goodness there's Louisa to talk to about my problems.
hahs.
sigh.
i'm in a very down mood right now.

AAH.

{ 8:52 PM on '' }


just came back not long ago.
was out with Louisa, talking and talking....
this is called fellowshipping.

School has made me find out things about myself,and made me sure of things
about myself.
i can be irritating.
i can act like a whiny pig.
i complain everyday.
i am not really nice sometimes.
i do things people don't understand
i am very very indecisive.
i can't communicate with certain people.
i feel pathetic when im alone.

there's more.
i am self-centred, as in I always talk about myself on my blog, i mean..
ya. and when i talk it always seems to be me all the time.
i DO think about others,of course!
yeah.

Talking is the way i communicate.(duh!) and comments can make me feel insignificant, and perhaps disturbing.
I sometimes feel that im at a lost.in school,at home...my life.
mmm..

okay, let's talk about other stuff here.
tomorrow's my school's fun fair. i hope it'll be a good onw, cause i don't want to waste my $$ on the tickets bought.
i have to be there at 10am, kinda early.
and i need to leave at bout 3 to 3.30, man, i can't see my form teacher get dunked!
Fun Fairs.
i usually don't have a very good feeling about these kinda fun fairs, cause, its all just very messy and stuff, and what more, they kind of cheat you with your $$ for food! Scheming. tat's my form teacher. HA.
ok so we're selling pie tee, pineapple twist,jelly..yeah.
better get good business.

okay I feel that my blog is so not interesting.
ergh!
my Dad! can he just stop telling me about school!
when i gets back, he expects me to study or do smth productive !
i know its for my own good, and he doesn't wants me to get addicted, but its my lifestyle!
when i come home, i usually use the computer. okay i shall not elaborate, maybe im in a wrong too.
this is why i always lose in an argument, or maybe i can't even argue cause there's always a right AND wrong in matters, and i always have to think on both sides.
SICK.
this means i can't win any arguments.

aiya, what can i say!
NOTHING.

Thursday, July 07, 2005
{ 7:52 PM on '' }


okay this week's past really fast.
i got my piano yesterday,not too bad.

well, saturday's the fun fair. and wala i still haven sold 3 tickets yet.
man i was usually the first few to hand in all the money during my pri school days. ;)
talking about primary school, i really miss it!
im such a cold soul who didn't even keep in contact with my pals from schooL!
yeah im from CHIJ-OLGC.
sigh, i really want a gathering or smth like that.
most of them went to SJC though,
hais.
how i wish i was in a girl school now.
mature faster. =)
ok that's just a no-sense comment.
really. i miss being a convent girl!
i mean i was the obedient kind ya noe,
and the way they instill discipline was really good.
esp if you're under MISS CONSTANCE TAN.
ha. fierce.

those were the days.......
i better recall more of it, so that i'll be able to convince myself that i do have a rather
interesting childhood.

mmm.
did you realise the taipei spokesperson fron channel news asia has that, weird accent when he says the name of his country?
i just heard it.

you know.
i feel so dumb when i talk sometimes.
i just say the wrong things.
i mean.
ah esp if you're infront of the class, and you say something.
i mean, aiya i just have no confidence!
man. im gonna brush up on that i tell you!
talking makes pple feel dumb. ok im the pple.
even when i say things, i get nervous and stuff like that which is so lame.
im like not talking to the President of S'pore or smth!

and talking about 'talking',
i just can't stand it when people just stop talking to you like that.
i mean, hello? i just don't understand things here.
ohwell, probably now, we'll just be strangers huh.
argh.
i better not make wild guesses,
cause i really make WILD guesses.
whatever.

i dont sound normal.

Monday, July 04, 2005
{ 4:30 PM on '' }


oh what's new?
i've been stuffing myself with NOUGATS today.
my favourite snack of the month.
hmmm...

today's youth day.ha. at home.
let me see what i did.
i cleared my sec1and2 worksheets and books out of the house,
but sad to say, my room still doesn't look empty,or neater.
man.
this is getting nowhere. i need a room makeover.

laalaa. i need to clear my wardrobe AGAIN.
its just messy.
and you might think only parents nag.
so does my maid.
oh man, she read it.ha!

blahs. i shuld be studying for tomorrow's test.
HEY. what's with teachers?
they always seize holidays from us and make it to their 'study for my test day', or 'do my homework day'
argh.
what's with them.
ah my maid is always trying to catch a nap.
what apig.
;)
and hello?
she just asked me whether my dad could order pizza so that she does not need to cook!
oh it happens everyday, im used to it.
ha.

okay, we just got to spare our maids.
but,
ah nvm. better not say anything offensive.
bye.

original crunchy nougat.
my favourite.

Saturday, July 02, 2005
{ 10:57 PM on '' }


BAD MOOD

ok today i was miss sour face.
was kinda ina bad mood.
sigh.
i don't know what gotten into me,
iw as just angry at everything,
and myself.

sigh.
im really not perfect.
ok like duh,
but,
its just so irritating. when im mad, im such a sour plum.
sigh.
anyway, i already bought a new piano, coming on wed.
but im not satisfied with it at first cause i liked the other one,
but i decided on the cheaper one.
hais.
but now, i sort of got over it.
sigh.
i can't make decisions.
i need to be decisive.
i always say it. yesyes.
but its hard ya noe.

but im cheryl, so i can.

ok. lame.

yup.

the rest of the day was okay, was talking to louisa as usual.
problems.
again.
friends.
again.

well, talking bout friends, i think i, too, share a common problem with louisa.
i mean ya, i don't have many friends.
yes you just can see it.
where are all of them?
see.
oh nvm.
i just want people whom i can communicate to well.
maybe some are right infront of me already, but i just can't seem to see them.
FRIENDS.
ah.
forget about it.

yeah,'
now i never talk on the phone.
and i've gotten over it,thankfully.Well, i just gotta be contented with what i have.
cause that's really what i need to learn right now.
complmaining and moaning and groaning won't get me anywhere,
cause nothing's gonna change,
unless you do something right?
well.
There's always something interesting in everyday to look forward to.
yup.
so i'll keep that going in mind.
okay it doesn't link to what im talking.
ha.

till here.

Friday, July 01, 2005
{ 6:16 PM on '' }


ok its FRIDAY!

time flies huh.
but i think its been a long week.
cause lessons are like 6hrs everyday!
sigh.

ha just reading joel's(mycousin)blog really cracks me up!
hahs!
he's funny.
go read it.

ok my aunt's dog is currently at my house.
i recently said i wanted a dog,but i guess,
i was being impulsive,
cause i guess the dog would suffer boredom,
just like me.
:)

okay being at home ain't that bad.
i just need a private and personal space at home,
which i apparently don't have,
because due to the junk at my house,
it is filled with all kinds of antique i would say.
okay im lying.
but its just, ergh.
i want MY things in MY room.
ok its not MY room in the first place, that was what my dad says.
it is a STUDY cum SLEEPING room.
wala. how about that?

so i really do complain.
i practically complain about everything.
ohwell.
and i realised i can talk too much.
too much,until i become an irritant.(corret spelling?)
yeah.

let's talk about something practical.
see.
there are actually many things to talk about.
you can pick out anything when you are talking.
its kinda cool,like talking about everything under the sun.
its a way to get friends.
is it?
not really.
cause some people might hate the way you put things,
the way you act,
and they dislike you.
oh great,
another enemy.
how many enemies do you have?

ha.
ok im just trying to put things in an interesting way if you haven noticed.
i sometimes think that i don't really have a great past that i can remember.
i just wonder how people can rememebr their past.
you know why?
cause its interesting and memorable.
oh!
i really do lead an unintersting life in the past.
how about doing the same thing everyday?
going home straight after school and watching kids channel that somehow would improve your vocab?
that was in primary school.
wait.
no.
i watched chinese shows.
i have a thing with chinese shows on channel 55
now no.
cause tv's not my thing anymore.
i was labelled a tv addict in the past.
and i don't wear spects!
YES!
this IS marvellous.
but now my eyes are easily tired, and rather strained.
ok. better rest my eyes more often and enjoy the scenary of green.
wow.

ohya. and talking about primary school,
i used to be called aloysius or "ah loy" or "ah boy",
its so gross when i think of it.
cause the other time my hairband broke during music class,
and wala, my fren says i look like aloysius from PCK.
how innovative can they get.
joke.
and from then on,
that guy name came about.
man.
i slowly got used to it.
hello?!
hey but i was straight then,
and i still AM.

yeah.
ok maybe this was rather intersting.
but this is only bit and pieces of the past.
well, if i try harder to rmb, maybe i'll make it a wonderful past to me.
ok what rubbish.
it was THE PAST.

mmm being on the net for so long realy is bad.
wonder how others could glue their eyes for 12 hours.
they'll go blind hello!
okies. i better get going, to maintain perfect eyesight.
ha!

bye.

i wanna go out!
this is a huge clue.
=)
Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma

Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.