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Sunday, August 28, 2005
{ 12:06 AM on '' }


People who are my friends really do suffer sometimes.
cause i can't really remember e days spent with my friends.
the good old days..

sigh. what BAD memory i have,
isi it because i don't treasure stuff i should?
i always thought that my life was just like a passing thing.
i mean i don't remember about what i did and i don't rememebr anything fun i did in pri school, or if i can say, sec 1 and 2.
i always think i had a boring life in school.
and me being quiet.
i need to do SOMETHING about it.
cause actually, MANY things happened!
COUNTLESS.

sigh.
i feel very sorry for myself. LOL
i feel so bad.
i feel so...ya know..
SIGH.

i do LOVE OLGC.
ah!
all my life and precious moments for 10 years of schooling.
have it all come to a waste?
sounds scary.
10YEARS.

i need some self-reflection.

Saturday, August 27, 2005
{ 12:15 PM on '' }


im at home now.
just looked at pictures i had.


this is my brother caught on camera while watching tv.


who's this?


ah just a few pics.
im gona go out to circus now.
i need a BREATHER!

finally im out of the house.

congragulate me, BYE.


{ 1:03 AM on '' }


WHY.
why am i killing time by using the com?
Besides, using the com= browsing through friendster and blogs.
i know i said that before, but hello?
i just don't wanna stop no matter how bored i am.
mad.

and good news!
my grades have been dropping like.....
ya.
its bad.
its not what i expect myself to have.
where have all the A's run to???
AAh. i got some personality problem!
seriously.
ah, my thinking about things can be quite unreasonable,
and silly.
and its just not what I think it should be.
PROBLEMS.

its 1AM.
what am i doing here?
killing time.
man.
NO.
i wanna wake up in the MORNING.
wait.
i have nth to do anyway.
AAAH. why can't i do smth i LIKE.


hit me please.
i need to wake up.


i'm mad.
nuts.
going bonkers.
BONKERS.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005
{ 11:32 PM on '' }


how to describe today?

well, im not in one of my usual moods now.
we had like 6 periods free cause of the EPSON bus thingy,
those ofyou who have watched news today would know.
My school had some important ministers who came and had the official launching of that bus.
i think it is to promote like exchange of info and culture with overseas schools.

okay i was just being plain rude. my grandma was complaining why all the lights were switched on outside.
ergh, so annoying.
i know i shouldn't have responded in that manner by askiung her to GO AND SLEEP.
ahh, im becoming from bad to worse to worst.
is that equation correct?
ah, my studies have been like....MAN.
common test results weren't really a high point for me.
i got like what i considerably say LOW.
its so upsetting to see your grades drop.
its carelessness.
but hello?
the grades are still LOW.

i hate it.
i can't stand it.
i detest it.
if i get low marks, i would like sort of like jealous of others who gets higher grades.
yeah childish, but who doesn't?
maybe some do not.
jealous in a sense that they got higher than me.
and its somewhat admiration.
doesn't sound right, but that's what i think anyway.

So, my gr ades.
it made me angry, and disappointed!
ARGH.
why is this happening to me?

things in my life have not really been all that well.
maybe the problem lies with me.
yes,
but still,
i wanna SCREAM.
i wanna blast your head off.
i wanna question WHY.
i wanna act like a fool.
i wanna vent my anger.

mad.



ponder ponder ponder.
i need to stop and ponder.
about life.
about school.
about friends.
about character.
about others.
about attitude.
about EVERYTHING.

i think im on the verge of going nuts.
mentally.
you can't see it physicallyy, but mentally,
its like a slow process of going into nuts-ism.
a VERY slow and unnoticable process.
call it a natural process.
im gonna be NUTS.


today was obstacle course.
yeah/
disorganised as usual.
can't our school have something organised PROPERLY.
so annoying.
it looked so unplanned.
no wonder only 3 classes of sec3's joined.
i think we got first!
hahs.
the THYTHONS.
spelt like that?
ah nvm.


LIFE.
ME.
WORK.
LIFE.

all comes back to my life.
!!!!


im feeling so quietly desperate.

Monday, August 22, 2005
{ 10:23 PM on '' }


PIZZA.
so full.

and im gonna have my piano exam next monday but im not preparing for it.
what a pig i can be.
ergh.

and i realised im kinda sore-loser-rish.
i have this bad attitude when i play netball.
bad sportmenship you can say.
great, by saying that,
you have to console me NOW.

ah well, inter class soccer's tomorrow!
hope my ankles will be just fine!


LIFE.

Sunday, August 21, 2005
{ 10:24 PM on '' }


oh its sunday!
definately GREAT.

i mean it.

i took a bus to church and i was punctual!
was kinda intersting sharing our lives with each other.
ok basically i was just being a good listener.
but its so amazing to see how God works.
come on man, its AWESOME!

today was GOOOD.
hey and im really old fashion.
my mindset and stuff are like back in the 90's.
oh no.

so now, im sorta having those on off tummyaches.
ergh, so uncomfortable.
anyway, GOD heals!
hey tomorrow
school's starting at 9!
yes, more beauty sleep!

FRIENDS. problems to me.
to those who know what i mean,
scream with me!
AAH.
AAAAHHHH.
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH.

i missed the apprentice for two weeks already,
but im too lazy to get to the living room cos its air-conditioned here in my room,
so comfortable...

there are like a thousand and one people walking in and out of my room.
hey i can't stand my toilet bowl.
its always stuck.
eew.

ohwell, tomorrow's another week of school, and then the next week will be my
piano exam!

help.'
yelp.




retro.

Friday, August 19, 2005
{ 9:21 PM on '' }


whooo!
ITS THE END OF COMMON TESTS!
yess!

finally. i've been online since 8 i guess,
its been a long time since i cam eonline.
oh well, tests are over, its really time for me to catch on some sleep
and ENJOY!!
yeah!!

COFFEE- it really makes you toss and turn on bed for ages!
i needed coffee cause i was as usual, SO sleepy, that i could have slept on needles.
(yeah right)
man, i needed coffee, or else i would fail my biology!
that was last night.
so i decided to turn in at one cause duh, it was late.
and guess what?
i think i spent like bout half and hour tossing and turning.
it felt so uncomfortable, as i always get into deep sleep in a matter of seconds!
ooooh yeah, but the coffee's not as bitter as i thought. ;)
i realised i can spend so long talking about something so lame,
talking about coffee.
OKAY i take it back, cause what i typed is not very long i suppose..

yeah and guys i didn't know that at 1am, when all's dark, you can't see a thing!
not even the figure of your hand!
for a moment i thought i was blind or smth!
kinda cool that it turned out to be that dark.
and its not because im dark that i can't see my hand please.
man i'm darker as the days go by,
people say im dark,
very dark,
black.
thanks.
i have no comments.
maybe im really dark, but see,
its called a tan.

Tan is beautiful, heard of it?

ok enough said.

there's this problem with me.
i often sort of like admire others in my head.
admire as in envy.
man, i don't know why,
its because i feel inferior,
i can't be like them..
ohwell.
MAD.
i really think im mad, plus a pinch of weirdness,
okay make that a tablespoon.

maybe i feel that way.
that's my point of view.
AAH.
its just me.
hey im always analysing myself..
im so full of myself, don't ya think?
okay not this is not the meaning,
blahblah.

today's friday.
FRIDAY.
the end of the week.
Many things happened.
Many thing to ponder about.
Many things to say.
Many feelings and emotions.

Too much to say.

WellWell, i've realised how important friends are.
i don't mean that im such a dumb head as to not know about this simple fact, but it really makes me thinking sometimes.
gets me to wake up and see who my friends are.
Friends.
who doesn't have friends?
who doesn't NEED friends?
ALL of us do, but,
friends.
Hard to come by.
people you can relate with and talk about everything under the sun.
ITS HARD!

i know it.
i know all about it.

ha its just kinda funny that when i blog, its just gets me talking about such general stuff, such stuff which seems so simple and obvious, but still, complicated.
maybe that's my point of view of things again.
HEY, i was rude to my grandma just now.
what a sinner.
Mood swings?
she kept saying i didn't switch off the kitchen lights for 2 nights, when i didn't even know i did, but i know, I DID NOT.
and she keeps insisting that it was me.
HELLO? NO!
although i may be a glutton, and is always hanging around in the kitchen, i knew i didn't switch on the lights!
not in the night, NO.
and thanks for blaming me.
i was like busy on the com and there she went on, and i was like kinda put off.

OKAY , and i really hope Singapore was snowing or smth.
i can't stand other telling me to bathe.
HELLO?
ah nvm i shan't talk about it.
;)

tomorrow's gonna be good i suppose.
I WANNA GO SHOPPING.

I NEED clothes.
what's new?


i hope for,
i wish for,

Saturday, August 13, 2005
{ 10:58 PM on '' }


wondering where have I been this whole week yeah?
man this week's HECTIC!
for me i guess.
man tuesday was AWESOME!~
Sentosa is a BIGGG place.
the beach's not bad after all!
i think i haven been to a beach before..
i mean..
like that.
if you know what i mean :)

okay i bet everyone has already been posting about Sentosa..
im so slow.
but HEY, my week's hectic you see.
sort of.
wednesday was the slacking day.
and fat day.
man, i can't believe myself.
im A PIG.

going back to my nonsense again. Sigh.
and thurs was school and my umpire course.
YAWNS. all about theory, but it was not so bad,
provided you can withstand sitting in an air-conditioned room for 4 HOURS!
anyway, was that a proper English statement?

okay. so thursday was just an all school day, and i came back with such tiredness in me,
yes.
slept.
and common test is around the corner!
i slept straight away i came back from school on friday!
pity me someone!

oohhs. so today's SATURDAY.
netball carnival.
wow.
im really busy.(yeah right)
hey its true anyway,if you were in my shoes.
i know i know.
some must be thinking its my so lack of time management..
so what are you doing there?
start praying for me!
x)

Netball today was rather..... smooth-sailing in a way?
but mistakes i made,
plenty.
ok so i did the wrong thing in court play and stuff,
and i don't know what i was thinking then.
repeating mistakes again and again...
and by the way, i got scolded for cheering.
long story.
it was so embarrassing!
but it was my fault anyway.
Sometimes i can be so dumb.
anyway, i think my coach got misunderstood.
aaah.
i always get misunderstood.

so now.
my vision FEELS blur.
hellp.
i need to go sleep now.
i just have to blog cause i haven been blogging for the past 4 days!
hey not that long lah.

ohwell.
whatever it may be, im strong!

that was out of sheer lameness.

GOOD NIGHT!

Monday, August 08, 2005
{ 12:49 PM on '' }


ok, so i've recovered! YES! at last.

FOP last night was not bad,
despite the fact that i was half deaf when i came out of the stadium.
anyway, the FOP made me see how fired up are Singaporeans for God. i mean i never seen such a big crowd praising and worshipping..!

yeah, and today was school's National Day Celebration.
we actually did nothing, except make a banner, and watch a short clip of Singapore.
It really makes you feel proud that Singapore is such a well-developed and high tech country.
i mean if you watched the video, maybe you can feel the sense of pride for S'pore.
but its hard i know cause talking about the nation is kinda odd, i mean how would you react if someone tells you that 'i'm so proud of S"pore!' ?
i mean this as in the person says it out of a sudden..
i can't get my point here, so mever mind.

wellwell, i guess everyone's enjoying themselves now, im at home!!
yeahyeah.
i wonder where would pple go, what they do.
i find it so interesting to just know what someone is doing and stuff.
i wonder what do pple talk about and stuff.
that sounds so lame.

ohwell, teenagers.

its about having fun!!!

if that's the case,
i can proudly say that im a senior citizen. -.-



hais.
i just can't seem to release totally.

sigh.
ohno, stomachache.


I WILL GO OUT.

Saturday, August 06, 2005
{ 11:34 AM on '' }


IM DOWN WITH FEVER!

great.
im feeling so warm and stuff now.
i shouldn't have played netball yesteday.
i really made me really drowsy.
didn't know what's on my mind then.
see, i don't even know im sick , i just continued playing.
great. and now i have to be a sick patient, lying on bed for 24 hours,
waiting to be served food and rotting. i can't sleep
cause i've already slept for 12 hours.
man.

i think i can't go church today.
i wanna go festival of praise!
AAH.

i hope i'll recover ASAP.


-boredom-

Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma


Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.