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Friday, September 30, 2005
{ 4:47 PM on '' }


OKAY.

i MUST study.
MUST.
its barely three days to the exams!

i need to study.
anyway, a qiuck post, i had oral today.
i was pretty satisfied and relieved that it was over!
but later I thought that i COULD HAVE said more things, and i COULD HAVE sounded a little more sensible.
all the COULD HAVE"S when its all over. its always the same cycle when you do something.
you always think that you could have done better.

okay I.

when is it ever the best?
what do I consider is giving my best shot?
where is the limit to become at the 'you've done your best' point?
seriously,
the could have's are akways there.


when will you be satisfied?



I have no idea.


okay i better be off to study.
TATARS.

Friday, September 23, 2005
{ 5:52 PM on '' }


okay im really really lost.
i need counselling.

ah i just feel that i'm not having any motivation to study, therefore, this.
okay . and today was waiting for Joyce to finish her english oral.
man, waited and waited...
anw, i hope oral for me wouild be fine...

is everything crunbling down in front of me?
i'm really lost.
I don't know how to answer questions in my head.
Feelings are just so natural that you don't know why you feel that way.
it can be frustrating at times.
and you try to deceive yourself by thinking you're not affected by anything in the world and you're just as happy as can be.
HAHA.
right.

yes i sound so emotional. my goodness.
this is like...
those people.
okay nvm..
i just cannot put across my sentence properly, and therefore, if you can infer, i am kinda worried for oral!
yesyes.

my com says its got a virus.
but everything's still fine.
mmm...
i hope everything's really fine.

FINE.FINE.
fine.

ah, i'm just paranoid.
talk about Cheryl being paranoid.

STUDY.



i need to blurt it all out.
yeah right, how much is there inside anyway?
chay.
and BTW, this post seems kinda senseless.



very senseless.










im just being a nosey prat.

Thursday, September 22, 2005
{ 7:34 PM on '' }


WAAAHHHAA.
10 more days to exams.
haven't studied yet!
and looks like the whole world doesn't have the oomph to study as well!
There's like no atmosphere!
nobody seem to be in the EOY mood.
this is BAD.

bad bad bad.


so what am I supsoe to do?
yes studystudystudy.
aiya!
Who likes exams?
and there are like so many tests to add on the so little time we have for the preparation for the exams..
AAH.



3rd Oct.
its all begins.




and I'm not addicted to the computer for now.
-.- BLAH.

Friday, September 16, 2005
{ 9:13 PM on '' }


so its the end of the week.
time really flies and its absolutely scary.

just looked through the nicks on msn, just wondered what their nicks mean.
and what are they thinking.
sometimes, its just necessary to think this way.
beats me.

EOY is coming.
i didn't study.
i slacked.
like mad.
ah was pissed off today.
PISSED.
and ya know?
I just don't know how to defend myself when criticisms are being arrowed to me.
that sounds like SO LAME yes.
ah ya, let nature takes its course.blahblah.

Im just totally in an i don't feel like studying mood, which is like, happening everyday.
and msn messenger's doen for me, i can't get on.
argh.



i really need a good lecturing.
anyone?

Friday, September 09, 2005
{ 1:30 AM on '' }


STUDY.
who's studying?
not me.
HHHOOOOOWW!

its like 4 weeks to EOY.
sigh! what a pig.
keep eating and eating and eating,
and doing nothing at home.
somebody whack me.

i find that food really is tempting!
its like, whoa, its suppeerr delicious,and satisfying.
but it makes you put on the pounds, DUH.
it just never get into my head.
im just the kind of person who would still continue doing something i know which has a consequence for me to bear.
say im stubborn.

argh. tat's how i sprained my ankle once.
my ankles are the like weakest.
its out of shape now.seriously.
it looks.... yeah out.'

and lousia!
i slept for 5 hours today cause i was so tired!
i went to east coast to cycle you see, and i was obviously tired for the whole day!
yeah.

boredom.
i just can't stand that word.
when people feel bored, they just like...
get all in the sleepy mood, or talk about the sillest things to keep them awake and alive.
why must there be boredom?
its all in te mind!
if one thinks your day is boring, some would go into a depression cause your day's so boring till you have to go to like out on a dull face and watch the world go by.
Some would keep themselves occupied by.... i don't know..
talking/eating/sleeping?
just look at someone's face, and you know whether she/he's bored.
facial expressions.
mmm...
and I really wonder what the naughtiest person would do when he/she's bored.
i mean everyone is just the same.
its doesn't make you stand out if you're the most proud or gross person,
these pple will feel the same like all of us..
im like talking as if im talking to someone dumb.oopps.
ya,get what i mean by stand out.

i wonder why do I talk about such stuff.
Well, i thought of it.
So, im sharing it. ;)
aiya. I need more words to make myself communicate better with this blog thing.
aiya, look at my sentence again.
it somehow doesn't make any sense.
its ALWAYS like that.
I'm like neither englishy or chinesey.
goodness.
being in between is not really a very nice thing.

its gonna be like 2!
i slept for 5 hours today, from 6 to 11 PM.
mad.
like I said, i went EAST COAST.
hey pple, you should try coffee bean's cheesecake,
its really good.
i've got a craving for it earlier.
ha.

okay, i'll blog till here.
make sure I study on friday(today),
good night!




ps: im not gonna slp yet.ha.
ya i know its not funny at all.
so why still the 'ha'?
-.-










i got a pimple.!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005
{ 11:34 PM on '' }


blah.
im feeling totally supppeerr restless and lazy..
for the past two days of the oh so wonderful holiday,
i was at home doing maths!
bit i don't consider myself really doing maths cause I wasn't really at all putting my whole heart into it, you can say, i was daydreaming.
totally NOT concentrated.
and why am I studying?
cause exam's coming in 4 weeks time!
its a whole LOAD to study, and given my lazy attitude,
i think I would need a year to prepare for it.
yeah right,
its not even a wee bit funny.

oohh and why don't I have confidence in anything?
it seems all LAME.
i need some time alone to think.


Circumstances make me feel so insignificant.
so stupid, I must say.
things I do now, would be labelled as silly to me in future,
don't you realised when you think back about your past or what you've done,
you'll find that in your head, it'll all be, "why did I so this?" or "im that stupid?" or stuff like that.
Well, maybe that just happens to me.
oh, ALWAYS me.

my eyes are painful.
so strained.
dumb computer causing this misery.
aah, and i realised others bloggers think no one reads their blogs when actually people do.
like me, being so bored at times,(all the time I mean) read their blogs when i go online.
hey I do read your blog!
but does anyone care?
Im just an insignificant pea.

IM not just some person whom you see as lousy, or low, or whatever,
or you might say, LOSER.
no.
what am I driving at?
the point is, i DISLIKE to be in this state of position.
I got my rights.
I got my way of living.
but i haven got the right mind and attitude.
what an awesome package.

oh well, things aside.
so today was class mooncake celebration.
simply, i would say, it was kinda like, wasting time or some sort?
or maybe just an oppurtunity to see our classmates, some in outside clothes.
wow.
had mooncake.
man mooncakes are SO sweet, i w onder how one can actually eat that TRADITIONAL mooncake flavour in one gulp.
eew,
i still eat the YAM one.
i was in love with it last year, and it made me put on the fat.
don't remind me.

just a thought whoch flashed through, not flashed but, ah literally:
am I really the person you see blogging?
i mean, the way i type somehow seems another side of me which is so unfamiliar.
to me lah.
yeah.
somehow, i just feel that way.
ok that sentence seems so emotional.chay!
yup.

back to mooncakes.
SO in conclusion of the day,
a health tip from Doctor Wong(the name here sounds like an old corny man)
: STAY AWAY FROM MOONCAKES if you want that figure! ;)




mama-licious.
(i wanted to end with somehting licious, and this just came out, yeah, till here)





PS: i really loathe insects.man one almost went into my body, eekks. they just have to flatter their wings like every millisecond, and go in whatever directions.

i forgot, they have puny eyes,
and a boring life.

{ 4:21 PM on '' }


INDULGENCE

that's all i can say for now.

Friday, September 02, 2005
{ 6:58 PM on '' }


man i've been on the com learning how to make my skin look better..
aaah. my eyes are so like gonna pop out ;)
ooohwell, at least i learnt something here,
like how to put an image on the template.

SO we got back out CA results slip.
i got nothing to say..
today, we sort of had a party for MR TEH.
yeah right, its like a party for US netballers.
SO informal and confusing..
we just don't know what to do anyway.
A party sounds too exaggerated.
Mr Teh just cut himself the cake, and cut it for everyone else, ate less than a mouthful of the cake, and left!
hello'???!
its s'pose to be a farewell party cause he's leaving!
its kinda funny.
haha. the way we did the party thing.
ohwell, i can't complain now, cause i didn't even do anything to help the helpless situation.

TOMORROW's church!
im usher.
;)
okay, i had a feast just now. CHERYL CHERYL CHERYL.
you're gonna be in the confinement room.
NO EATING.
only apples for you.
haha.

ah im like Louisa here, laughing at my own jokes. LOL.
oh went out with Louisa yesterday
was kinda tiring.
and she was SO bored by me.
how nice!
hey i was lying.
im not boring!

ah nvm. im having lotsa things on my mind now.
!!
SEP HOLIDAYS!
can you believe it?
i've been a SEC 3 student for like 8 months already.
FAST.

O levels next year.
how stressful.
i pity myself next year.
gotta studystudystudystudy.
lalalaaalaa.
im so bloated.
boop.

i need to change my blogskin.

Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma


Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.