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Saturday, November 26, 2005
{ 12:58 PM on 'Words.' }


Bad words. Vulgarities. Why do pple use these words so EXCESSIVELY? Whoa are they so angry that every sentence they have to use those words? It's really kinda scary and trumatizing for me. I mean, okay they're angry, but don't they feel that its kinda, like, wrong to rattle on and on about how bad their life is and blahblah with those vulgarities which makes their emotions go eilder? I know their just trying to emphasize how they feel, but I just think that's so not the right way to vent their anger. Man, is it influence? I really feel awfully shocked . mmm, and a bit fearful. okay are those really the right vocabulary words? okay never mind, but anyway, Vulgarities are just getting way out of hand.

I came upon a friend's blog. Sigh, I really feel kind of sad for my friend. Sometimes you don't know what kind of life other are living in. You see them physically, their just like any ordinary person, but when you look deeper in them in their lives, they're all so broken and hurt. Its upsetting. Wish you all the best pal.

Okay, how can we help ? ;)
My mind is still trumatized by those _ words pple use in blogs.
WHOA.
change them Lord.


lalalalaa. today's Saturday and its raining!!
great.
I hope dad can fetch me to church!
Sigh, Im really lost.I can't decide. Im at a lost.

Thursday, November 24, 2005
{ 12:39 PM on '' }


HELLO! i've not been blogging lately, and the problem is not because that i've been very busy, cause in actual fact, I'm so free I can just sit in a plane and go around the world.
That's how free I am.
Well, let me recall what I've done for the past few days..

Monday: Made IC. oh ya, it was quite embarrassing cause your pic has to be taken sort of in front of everyone queueing up. Not when taking the pic, but when your face is screened on the com. MAN, everyone can see, and obviously I say everyone cause when you're queueing, you'lol have nth better else to do but look at other pple. Yeah, great. Then later, I had netball. I thought I was going to vomit cause I ate quite alot for lunch. Woo. I didn't. Anyway, Lavander Food
Square caught my attention with their yummy and wide variety of food. YUMYUMYUM.

Tuesday: I was wasting time.

Wednesday: Netball and TV TV TV!

SIGH, I'm always watching tv like mad. THIS IS SO UNPRODUCTIVE.
Anyway, Yesterday night if you have watchedTAB TV, you would have seen the issues on maids. I really pity them. I mean some of them work because they wanna support threir family, so obviously they wanna look for jobs with higher pay. AND being a foreigner, they don't really know anything and they are cheated by people into prostituition and stuff, man, that's really saddening! STUPID EVIL PEOPLE.
Look at the world now, there is horrible pple with heartless souls! ARGH, makes me wanna smack them.
LOL. aah, poor maids. They should seek for help, but with those uncouth monsters around threatening them and stuff that if they quit they can't go home and blahblah, how on earth can they get out of prostituition?! man.
I can't stand it. I was kinda sad for them....

Ah, in the first place, they should take one step at a time to earn money.Ohwell, we live in an evil world.

OKay today i'm gonna stay home. maybe going out later! HAHAHAH. Oh ya, thanks to my friend who reminded me that this is our holiday to enjoy because next year we'll be having O levels, I really feel at a disadvantade BECAUSE my holidays spent is not really very exciting.
MAN IM GONNA MAKE THIS HOLIDAY A BLAST MAN. Thanks for stirring up the emotion.
ah nvm. So, I hope my trip to Australia with my family is going to be okay.
Ah, going with friends are just more fun... well, guess I need to build up the family bonds!

TIME IS PASSING WAY FAST.
-faints

Saturday, November 19, 2005
{ 1:07 AM on '' }


HELLO! its 1.14AM, i really sleep late nowadays. It's so bad fpr my health!
Today was netball. 6people turned up.

HELLLOOO???!! 6?!
man. What happened to everyone? i can't believe netball had turned out to be like what it is now.There used to be so many of us then. I was made to recall how netball was like when we're sec1, although I can only remember vaguely, but yeah, we were united then, now, all I see is just individual people coming to netball. I mean, okay I sound so concerned here. Its me la. Individual, like what the 6 of us and MdmToh and Miss any(coach) discussed today after training, meaning that we were not united as one team. All of us look close, but in fact, we aren't. That's what Miss Amy said, which is kind of true.
KIND OF.

Ohwell, I wonder what do other teams do? Are they that close? I haven seen a team train before, and how can they take such tough training? I mean we already feel that our training is tough, but the coach doesn't. So, that means other teams train harder, much harder then us.
Are they human?
haha.
not funny.
Do i really have an interest for netball, or is it just for commitment sake?
I'm kinda lost.
AH, i'll be able to answer it one day.
;)

anyway, I just found out that cartoons are so amusing that it made me chuckle.
haha. chuckle.cute word!
yeah. Cartoons just let out our childish sides. okay that soudns totally off, but ah, cartoons still exist for everone! Don't be ashamed if you're a married woman with two kids and still watch cartoons! Cause cartoons are GOOD for the mind body and soul.
It makes us feel younger again!
Everybody wants to be young right?
Maybe for the exception of some youths who are dying to be 18.
why?
Why 18?
It sounds like a nice number, but why?
Oh there's more freedom. You can buy alcohol w/o lying like before(wait, does 7-eleven do a good job in checking their IC?) Cigarettes? oh 18 makes you feel like a grown up. It's just that perfect age.
OH REALLY.
mmm, ohwell, I don't know about human psychology.
just stick with Cheryl's ways of defining stuff!

woohoo. I think 18 makes you feel like you're all grown up ready to live your own life w/o anymore parents nagging and complaining about how messy your room is or to help out in the house. But pple, parents would never stop, unless their really those kind who really can't be bothered with you, or either those who really wants kids to live independantly and stop giving you allowances.
AHAHA, you're doomed.

I better get to sleep now, its already 1.35AM! AAAHHH. I'm becoming naughty naughty!
Okay that sounds kinda gross.
okay, GOOD NIGHT!

Friday, November 18, 2005
{ 12:01 AM on '' }


hello I'm back.
I'll try to love my blog more after this change of skin. Well, I know its not much of a difference.
Wellwell, for now, im kinda pleased with this.I like the font. ;)

So today I went to Coffee Bean with Louisa and I did like SO LITTLE A MATHS and SO MUCH talking! Man, she didn't even bring work to do! What a pig. haha. SO we had some blended coffee and a muffin. It was supposed to be MY muffin but then she took bits of it yeah, and I hope she pays me half the price! hoho, I don't know how you define being calculative or smth.
OkayOkay, I am calculative.

mmmm, went to Pet Station after that, and she was like so crazy about the Golden Retriever.
OKAY. I don't really know whether Im into dogs.
I practically don't know anything, which is kinda pathetic. No, very pathetic indeed.
Well, I'm trying to find out more about myself !
yeah. I'm such an unfeeling person. I'm not that expressive cause being expressive can irk me a little. And maybe I'm just self-conscious, but not too much now! ;) i think....

And i can't believe I was so STUPID in the past. I mean all that I've done. man, rubbish. But it was an experience in my life though, teaching me how I was when I was a young teen.
TEENage. What a torturing growing precess.
DON'T YOU AGREE!
I sometimes think of what pple do and I find it totally obnoxious!(as taken from Louisa)
But hey, i think its just their growing process, right? But, not all things is due to their growing process.
Well, seriously, what can we do to keep ourselves occupied! MANYMANY things.
I'm such a SWINE(from Louisa again), Im so lazy, ergh, it pisses me off sometimes.
Okay wrong usage of word, i don't get pissed off, I get worried!
I see the way I face everyday life, it kinds of make me stop and ponder a little.
I really want to live productively!
REALLLY!

i need a mentor.
Seriously.
I've been thinking about it for awhile, its just nice to have someone watching over you in your life. Don't you think? mmm..

Who reads my blog?
hello? anybody? respond!respond!
RESPOND!




God, help me through everyday
that I may live the way you want me to.
Amen.


May this be what you pray for too! :)

Thursday, November 17, 2005
{ 4:25 PM on '' }


so decided to change here and there but the layout still look sthe same!
aha. okay so watching tv=wasting time.
I did that for the whole of yesterday night.
Today, i feel rather accomplished. When i woke up, I had a LLOONNGG breakfast, and then later I was trying to solve the sukodo or smth in the TODAY newspaper. Its something about the number where you must be able to fit the digits 1 to 9 vertically, horizontally and in the given 3x3 box. it really wrecked my head off, but its kinda cool.

Later, i went to wash my clothes! AHAHAH! can you believe it?
i think washing clothes=wasting water as well, cause you spend half the time trying to get the soap off the clothings which is kind of troublsome cause it wouldn't get out till your fingers turn wrinkly. okay my fingers aren't wrinkly. SO anyway, I managed to wash my clothes! yayy!
And i helped around the house with my Brother. I can't believe i helped washed his shorts.OKay big deal, its just shorts, only with a stain of some human waste.
YUCK.

ahahaha.Later I'm gonna meet Louisa , I have to do some school work! and HEY! i spent like an hour on the com, no no , an hour and a half! goodness.
the computer also equates to wasting time! i HATE this kind of lifestyle, so unproductive!!!!
DON'T YOU THINK SO!!

I got so much to do in fact! AAH , guess what? why don't Singapore have winter! For me, I'm the waterfall of the day when the sun comes out. HELLO? It feels awfully uncomfortable when perspiring!
I feel so eeekks. But anyway, I'm used to being wet. AHA, eew.
So at least winter will make me feel cooler and much more comfortable, playing with the snowballs, making snowman(which i haven made before), and all those things you do on winter..(like???!!!)

OKAY, Louisa's rushing me now! gotta go now, SEE YOU!
BYE.



i feel itchy!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005
{ 2:46 PM on '' }


PEOPLE! I'm BORED.
sigh, i shouldn't be saying this allt he time, but hey, im lazy to do everything that's why I'm bored. Lazylazylazy.

btw, do visit the blog Louisa and me created at www.retrorattles.blogspot.com
heehaa.
I think i'm going to buy a planner 2006 for myself, just a try of having a planner with me so that I would plan my days properly and productively.
2005 is going to come to an end! that's so fast.
All the days I spent, all the friends, all the bonds, all the heartbreaks, all the thoughts, all the time wasted, all the emotions, and everything, hopefully would be remembered by myself.
I can't believe the year's passing so quickly! All the time. TIME. No one can ever change it. What's done is done.
I feels kind of saddening to see how fast time goes by and all the mistakes I made and all the days spent meaninglessly w/0 change at all. Being lazy is so not going to be in the days of 2006!I Better pray hard for that!

I hope everything now would run smoothly.
God, I trust in you.

Monday, November 14, 2005
{ 8:59 PM on '' }


this is my 100th post now! HAHA. finally. Blogging for the 100th time.
not bad for someone like me, hmmm.. I'll still complain how much I've been eating! MAN, all those food.
Today, I had a prata for lunch! YUMMY!
A PRATA.
not bad.
But when dinner came, it was no longer one but two dinners!
OHMY!
the weighing scale's ticking tickin ticking to............. 40kg!
right.


I need to improve my maths this holidays and all my subjects, but its just pretty weird to do that during holidays.
Im such a lazy pig.
LAZY!
really pple, im really LAZY.
LLLLLLLAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZYYYYYYYYy.

Tmr meeting Louisa to eat gelare. (how to spell?)
EATING again.
MY PASSION ;)



signing off:
PASSIONATE EATER.

Thursday, November 10, 2005
{ 1:30 AM on '' }


HIHIHIHI!
im still up.
okay gtg now.
bye!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005
{ 1:27 AM on '' }


aching legs inside.
i think i got rhumetism. (is this spelt like that?)
im really in pain.

today the sun was SO SO SO SO hot.
HOT.
im burnt, as usual. was so tired after that, i walked to j8 like 0.2m per min.
oh well, tired.
watched tv for like 2 hrs.
my eyes are really strained! i MUST NOT wear specs!although I think its kinda cool.
tomorrow is gonna be shopping time!
yeah right, shopping.
shopping as in window- shopping.
its always the case.
wellwell, got a call from Joyce today!
so surprising!
but likethere was some connection prob and yeah, talked for barely 5 min.
haha, hope the peeps at Xi'an are enjoying themselves!
man, they are sure to enjoy! what can one ask for an overseas trip with friends? that's really like COOL!
lalalaa.




makeover.

Sunday, November 06, 2005
{ 11:15 PM on '' }


SUNDAY!
it has been a LONG week with chalets.
CLASS CHALET:
firstly, we had night cycling! it was so cool! we went to ride all the way to Changi Airport to see the airplanes take off. it was like drizzling, and me, being the mother of the sheep, was like asking my friends to quickly ride back FAST.
oh well, was just afraid of the lightning and ya know, we need to be in a shelter and yeah..
that was the fun fun fun thing.
Rode the bikes till my butt was like really painful.
Awesome experience though!http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=9601979
;)
we had BBQ for like two nights.
man, all the BBQ's has made me ............ (fill in the blanks)
yup.
learnt how to play the different kinds of card games, if you know what i mean.
felt like a some kinda... uncouth youth playing those games.
HA. okay don't get me wrong it was p o k k a .
yeah/

MY CHALET:
HAHAHA> i love it.
I thought it wouldn't turn out well, but thank God it turned out pretty OKAY!
HOWever, i need to learn how to accept failure, and be nice.
I was like annoyed with granny the whole time.
I think i was also being annoying with my temper against her and stuff. oh well, don't talk back to your elders. I don't talk back, I just ask her to go do other things.
lol.
so friday checked in and played badminton and like perspired like mad thanks to the wind-less environment enjamin, LOuisa and I were playing at.
yeah, ate pizza hut! YUUMMM.
then the rest came along: Jinghan , Jeralyn, Michelle.
HA, had crappy talks the whole night esp on the bed! (don't get me wrong!)
yeahyeah.
SATURDAY:
had reakfast at food court, and it was like drizzling after we like finished eating.
So, we like went to the arcade.
and played FIND IT/. Our childhood game back at ezone shaw plaza :)
yeah, after the rain subsided, it was WILDWILDWET!!!
it was my first time and it is reallllllyyyyyyy eexxcceelllleeennt!
although there were like some gross lifeguards around.
HAHA. it was like so funny! one life guard had golden hair, so we called him the golden hair guy, and somehow I changed it to sunny, ahhaa. see the link with gold and the sun? yeah.
He was like... ah nvm, just trying to get attention.
and EVERYWHERE we go, we like see him!>?!?!
there was another one! called the pervert.
He thinks he's so cool with his trunks and like want some attention, so he decided to flip our floats at the SHIOK pool while we were happily flloating around! btw, he swam under me!
yes trying to show off his dolphin like swimming tatics. HAHA, im not amused, im trumatized.
;) like UNDER me?! okay maybe im just over-reacting.
yeah, and there was the samsung one.
AHHA. He looks better with outside clothes ;P
yeah, so that was with the lifeguards.

mmm, so ya great experience there.
will rememeber it!
so after that we went back to the chalet to get ready for BBQ.
BBQ again. sigh. my third one the whole week.
man, this whole week is eating time and growing fat. everybody say whoa!
"WHOA!"
so had fellowship when everyone came, cousins, friends, yeah, with the birthday girl!
ME!
15 years old.
quite old huh.
anyway, today's the real date.
but oh well, had a great time in church and at home.
eating.
hahahahaha. no lah.


so that sums it all for my week.
i LOVE it.
I love the presents!
really.
thanks everyone for making my day!
and thanks everyone who wished me!
thank you thank you!
i won't forget you all!
this can be said as the most awesome birthday in my whole 15 years!




CHEERS to the 15!
yipee!

Friday, November 04, 2005
{ 2:24 PM on '' }


its chalet week!
im TIRED.
i haven packed for today.
gotta rush now!

blink away.

I DESPISE YOU.


see you folks!

Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma


Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.