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Friday, May 19, 2006
{ 6:39 PM on '' }


I was so angry today after being woken up from my sleep.

Okay I was grumpy cause I had to fetch my bro from school with my maid and it was already 5pm.
I was also grumpy cause I slept for an hour and a half. Idiot. That is like so long. And I felt that I could have done some CHINESE or smth. Sick. All the wasted time. Feel like killing someone. Okay too extream. AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!

I HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE HATE HATE.

Im getting into mood swings or what? SHUTUP!


Yes seriously please scam or I'll kick you!





Is this what you call mental?

Thursday, May 18, 2006
{ 6:46 PM on 'Sad sad sad' }


It was totally a sad day for me today.

Receiving my chinese results today was like a killer for me. Mock exam paper1 and common tests chinese results were so not good. I thought my compo was okay, but I realised that I had so many weird sentence structures, plus, my comprehension skills is like ways off, and a big bang to my cloze passage. I thought my Chinese was alright. YEAH RIGHT. Now, I know, its really bad.

I was so sad :( I can't stand low grades. But Im still having this sick 'fail la fail la' attitude
-_-!!!!

God is with me, right? I sometimes ask that when things just don't seem to go the right way and when life seem so mundane to me.. But I keep assuring myself that He is there for me and He is in control. But why, do I doubt?

The flesh is weak.


He will do something great for me! And everything happens for a reason. His plan. His
time. Amen.

:) Im h a p p y now.

Although maybe later I'll still brood over my poor results, but ya know, the joy of the Lord is my strength!

Okay yeah, that aside. Im starting to eat and consume the carbos in all bread shops in J8. Watch me stomping into your bakery shop and go "Smile, you're on candid camera!"

Monday, May 15, 2006
{ 4:38 PM on '' }


There was PFT today.We did the 5 item test and well, it was pretty alright I guess, but it reminded me that my stamina is getting from bad to worst.

Man, I pant like anything! Twice the rate than others. This is so bad cause we're having our 2.4 run on wednesday. HELLO? I don 't want to be so breathless till my lungs turn blue(?) like the day at the macritchie run.. nono.

O level Chiense in exactly two weeks time. SSSCCCRRREEEAAAMMM please!!!! Its like so fast that I don't even think its O levels. Its like Im gonna sit there w/o preperation. Im not prepared! I hate it when Im not prepared. I don't know. This whole O levels thing is just making me reflect alot. As in, who am I doing it for? Get good grades so that others would think better of me? Because my parents would be pleased? Because of competition against classmates? Man, I have no drive. Its like I can just say that I'll not do well. CHERYL PLEASE CUT THE CRAP.
Im terrible.

:( I just hate it when people think lowly of me. Am I too paranoid or smth? I'd always think of that when I do smth wrong or I score really bad or smth... I shouldn't base my opinion on what others think right.. DUH but its just a thing. heehaa, go away man.

laadeedoodeedaaDOOM. There's mock exam paper 1 for chinese tmr. Who should I blame for my unpreparedness?


My choice would be the school. HEEHAAHOOHEE.
Why can't I skip my O levels!?!


Oh ya, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY TO ALL!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA!(belated)

I haven't given my mum the present yet cause she was already sleeping. -.-

Friday, May 12, 2006
{ 11:20 PM on '' }


I STAYED AT HOME THE WHOLE DAY AND I WAS SO BORED I WATCHED TV AND STARED AT THE COMPUTER THE WHOLE DAY THIS IS SO SO MEANINGLESS I HATE MEANINGLESS DAYS WHY IS IT MEANINGLESS CAUSE I MADE IT MEANINGLESS WHY CAUSE I WAS AT HOME.

AH crap one day gone. POOF!

I hate it.

{ 11:40 AM on 'Im freee.' }


I'm so totally blogging now!

Common tests are OVER. Heard me? Over!

oh yes yes yes, how I love it. Its the holidays! ALL the mugging days are finally over! I didn't really feel like studying on Wednesday cause I was so looking forward to the end of the exams. Well, Physics was not really a pleasant one, considering that I was holding my bladder for an hour and forty five mins. Boy my kidney must be overworked or smth. I have no idea why I didn't want to raise my hand up to ask for permission to go to the toilet and release whatever urea I had. Man, I'm like killing myself. Holding so much pee.

I couldn't concentrate during the paper. And again I ask, why on earth hadn't I asked to go to the toilet!?!?! I think i just didn't want to. Ergh. SO don't blame me if I didn't do well for the paper, blame it on my bladder. It just works at the wrong time. -.- Hey, but its kinda scary when its so quiet and everyone's doing their paper and someone ruining the silence by pushing your chair out and standig up, shuffling your feet out of the classroom, and coming back again. Distracting right?

Okay that's not a very good excuse.

Its over so yea, at least I gone to the toilet after all. :) Btw, I have no idea why my toilet keeps choking. Its so frustrating. Lol. Im so not gonna pump the water.

Yup. Its Vesak Day! And here I am at home. I want to go out! Its been a really long time since I've done any shopping! Okay my shopping is notnreally considered shopping, cause I can't bear to spend my money. And what more, I prefer window shopping! -Dangs- Yeah.
I know many pple hate it. AH I just feel that I need to look at ALL the shops first before picking my choice of clothes and accessories. That is why, I still have none yet.

What a pig. ( I was thinking of other terms to use besides pig,but I can't think of anything! I seriously need a vocabulary of light insults)
Am I making sense?

I want to go out! I want to get out! I hate spending my time on electronic devices for such a long time. eg: TV and computer. Last night, my eyeballs were practically out of my eyehole(?) cause I watched TV for like 3plus hours. Okay that is pathetic cause TV addicts watch TV like the whole day, but my eyes felt so so strained. I hate that feeling, and now its acting up again.

I will never ever watch TV again. Oh I hear Michael Buble on TV now! Ha, so you know, I better stop her, BYE!

Saturday, May 06, 2006
{ 2:16 PM on '' }


Guess what?

I went to the Worker's Party Rally yesterday at Serangoon stadium. Goodness, you would be as shocked as me! There were SO SO SO SOOOOO many people! I haven't seen so many people walking to a stadium before! That is, besides National Day. But i think there were more people yesterday! Man, I was like an idiot so amazed by the crowd, and I felt so enthu about this whole rally thing cause there were so many people! iT WAS ABOUT 15000 as written in the newspaper! WHOOOAA!! I was one of them! yay.. Im quite an idiot. I get overwhelmed by seeing thousands of people gathering at the rally. Okay who wouldn't! Its like seeing yourself in your Social Studies textbook in one of the rallies, where everyone goes 'PAP' or smth. However, I went to the "Worker's Party' one.

Definately cool.
Okay its not cool actually.
Cause can you believe Singaporeans actually going gaga over the rally and shouting 'Worker's Party' like their gonna start a riot or smth. It felt weird and pretty scary! I thought Singaporeans were ignorant or just you know, people who don't do such stuff. Maybe its because of the overwhelming anout of people gathered there which made them HIGH and start hollering and waving flags like mad in the air.

I don't even know whether they know what's going on.
Its like it was really difficult to hear what the speakers were saying, plus the crowd overflowed out of the stadium to the road outside+carpark. The whole stretch was filled! It was really cool. SO many thousands of pple... You should see! Being one of them there, you actually feel like. Wow, Im in here with 14,999 other people :) I'm still into the 'I love seeing thousans of people' kinda mood. Yeah, and so being out there, we can't really hear clearly, but overall, the response was like, better than the NDP. okay as if, but I was so appalled that people were clapping and shouting and whatever, for the opposition. Hmm.

The experience was quite fufilling. I should go on rattling about how idiotic I was. AGH better not. Just say I was like a small kiddo with my parents saying really nonsensical stuff and trying to act like I know everything. Lol. Politics is so deep. And yesterday, I only remembered MR Gomez saying about looking into the needs of the young adults and stuff. I think they didn't go in depth. Oh well, there's still a long way ahead for me in understanding about these things. 5 years more till adulthood. Oh boy, that's like so fast.

!>??!?!?!?!? Can you believe me becoming an adult in 5 years time?

Friday, May 05, 2006
{ 3:44 PM on '' }


HA, I just read my blogposts i wrote last time, Man, My English was MUCH better then , and I had ma ny things to write, probably because I write about debatable things, okay, or to put it, I write about my feelings towards things.

Oh how i miss the old Cheryl! It was me who wrote all those posts! -Appluads-
I had better English then, man, now my English is so bad. I am a sucker in writing compositions, and I can't do summary the correct way cause I always summarise word for word or smth like that. That's why my sentences are always so short..Who knows there might be even a change in meaning..

ENGLISH........................ Just have to read. Oh ya today I went to Thomson Plaza w' my friends. There was this book sale and boy, my friends really do love books huh! They were browsing through book after book. How can I have such a passion for reading! TELL MEE...

And there's also this man, who showed the bunch of us magic tricks. It was so cool, and quite scary, cause you don't know what he reallly did to make that thing disappear!
Ha, interesting.. And also we saw Miss Chng's brother/cousin. It was so obvious that we wanted to look at him. Haha.

FEELING BREATHLESS is so not funny.
Today my school had Cross-Country, and I was one of the competitive runners. Goodness, it was one of the worst runs I ever encountered in my history of running. I was so breathless, sort of, as I seem to be breathing like ever so hard during the run. It was never like that when I ran. The feeling was so different. I stopped and walked for like a thousand and one times.

SO embarrassing. I feel that, ya know, people will think that hey you're a netballer and you can't take it,and they give that proud face, or like, hey I'm in library and I can run faster than you. EEKKKSS!!! I hate it. See, Im so self conscious. Sigh, I felt like giving up during the run. Its like I already gave up when I couldn't take it, and therefore, I walked, therefore, I tend to stop more often.AAAHHHH!!! Anyway, its over. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? After the race, my heart was like feeling pain! REAL pain okay and not those emotional hurts which every ah lian goes through. You know?! Im so scared that my heart and lungs go haywire! Badbadbad.

ANNOUNCEMENTS: .............................................................................................
My team came in third! It was so shocking cause we all felt we didn't run as well as we should! Its like we let down our Ziya cause you know, its like pulling her down because of us wols runner. lol. Yeah, Thank God for everything! :) AND... my class came in first for "Best Dressed".
ERM, for your info, it was only a few of my class mates wearing the green polo shirt. The rest either had to provide servies for the event or do smth else. joyce was sort of allergic to the shirt. AHHAA, sounds funny. Yeah, Today was alright. I don't know how we got the prizes, but well. CHEERIOS! :)


Whn you step into a makeup shop, eg SASA, would you, all of a sudden, want to own every make up it has? YES! At that instant, cause everything's liek so cool. You get to decorate your face with all sorts of colours and admire your pretty art. Aha, and you get to paint your nails with like a gazillion colours. BOY, do I love colours! hehehhaa. I'd still prefer eyeshadow. Its so cool! I want to play with make-up some day, anybody?
Girlie girlie.


I realised the feelings I think others would have on me may be because that's what I do think of others as well. What an idiot right.

One hour on the com...and still ticking. Man, I ought to be shot.

Monday, May 01, 2006
{ 5:59 PM on '' }


ITS MONDAY! PUBLIC HOLIDAY!

Wel, I finally did my A maths practice, but I took so long! About 2 hours+, I think its a waste of time.. Wait, i think I spaent a whole afternoon on it! See, waste time.. My brain cells aren't working fast at all, that's why I'm eating vitamins which enhances concentration! :)

Anyway, I think I have a deprived childhood! I was so interested in my brother's new toys.. All those toy people and trains and houses.. You could make up your own fantasy world kinda thing. heheHAHAhoho,, mmm , I got loads to do. One day passes really fast. I always think i have nothing to do and therefore waste it away, but HEY! I got a thousand and one things to complete and i don't bother. So screwed right.

O LEVEL CHINESE is TWNTY NINEEE DAYYYSS AAWWAAY??????!!!!!!!!!?????????!!!!!!!!

Goodness.
I have no idea what I'm gonna do. This whole O level frenzy just seems to unaffect me. AS USUAL. I think I'm made of stone or smth, I hardly have any feelings! As in not those kinda feelings which you read on my blog, but you know, real feelings... Ah, say I'm an odd creature.

So, I'll be doing some other work, so yeah, we'll just all have to dread school tomorrow.................

Yay?

Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma


Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.