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Sunday, January 28, 2007
{ 5:13 PM on '' }


Im feeling sick in the stomach now.
I've been eating super fast and a lot so yeah, my bad.

Ooohh, School's tomorrow! Why on earth does weekends have to pass so fast? No worries, i still have about 7 hours more before monday comes. Ah i want a fanily day outing every sunday! I want to shop! Ah i want to grow taller too! Ah i want to eat less too! Ah i want to read regularly too!

Yes, so there's still GP project on IJIME. Go check it out on the net. Its about school bullying in Japan which has taken over the sound mentality of Japanese students. Yes, they even commit suicide cause they feel living is painful. Goodness, its a problem still. Boy, the world is evil.

Watches are cool.

Hmm, I need to be deeper than this. My thoughts can be quite shallow. HAha.
Ya, Im like having difficulty breathing you know. Its like something obstructing my air passages! Ugh. Seriously, must be all the SMOKE AND POSIONOUS FUMES I've breathed in due to the pollution by man of air. I HATE AIR POLLUTION!
It totally destroys my mood at that moment okay. That means if i walk to school every morning, i'd breathe in filthy air by cars and thus, blacken my morning. BOOO to FUMES.

Think about it. Technology kills. Get what i mean? They kill emotionally, physically and socially. BOO!

BOOO to SMOKE. Ah there's a lot of people smoking in Singapore you know. Yes but please, spare a thought for babies and the sick and the old and every breathing creature alive. Some smokers are totally inconsiderate. So are we suppose to thank you for the thrill of having smoke on our faces? I guess not.

No personal attacks here. Ah im so tired. Guess i'll stop here. Six and a half hours more till monday. NO!!!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007
{ 6:50 PM on '' }


Hello!

One week pass so fast! I'm so sad! Its like so fast....
I don't want to be rushing with life, I want to take it slow. Ah but probably I've taken it a bit too slowly in my studies. Man i lost touvh. I feel so embarrassed in my class cause I feel dumb. Marks do matter. I thank God that I still am able to even come to nanyang and make it to science stream. I really think its a miracle! Seriuosly, my class guys are like hardworking. Everyone is kinda smart. Oh the pressure. Can you beleive if you plan to stay and your classmates and friends leave? Its like, hello? You all deserve a punch y'know...

Haha, so I've been wasting printer ink printing all the lecture notes. Talk about saving the trees and saving money. Ah I think i'll be staying in Nanyang if I can. (Yes im like pessimistic) Haha, okay cool down and don't think about anything cause I can't do anything now.

Oh ya i went for the netball trial thingy, yes as you all can see, I've chosen netball, FOR THE TIME BEING.
Im still at crossroads on whether I should take up netball or not. Okay, my goal this year is to be decisive and firm. Cheryl, cut the crap.

-.- Im struggling! Hmmm... can you believe there's gonna be tests next week! Is this how JC is suppose to start? Im still like in dreamland dreaming of nothing. Daydreaming. That's the worst thing you can do cause you are wasting time and not using your brain cells wisely. Im dying every minute. Haha. No lah.

I have to spend time wisely from now on. My goal you know.
Eeeww Im like fat. I realised being thin/skinny/fit/just right is like so an advantage. As in you perspire less, you are able to run faster(cause you're lighter), you can fit into smaller clothes, you can eat a lot but no one will criticise you cause you're not fat. See...

Yes yes oh I need to have dinner now.

Respect your elders. Yes, but they have to show that they are worth to respected right? Or is it just the way people change this rule?

Respect.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007
{ 8:35 PM on '' }


School. I have no idea why im blogging actually. Ain't I suppose to write the day's happenings in a journal? Hmmm.. whatever. (The word 'whatever' is a rude word, yeah)

Okay, so today I was happy and okay. Although I always have rough mornings, with how I am suppose to rush to go to school, and now having this period thing its like double rush for me. So, today was okay. Good? I've no idea how to describe today. Hmm, I should try using one word to describe my day everyday, sounds cool huh?

So i ended up going for netball and like, its not really training. Its kinda fun playing netball, but where's the passion? Had PE earlier in the day. I've got to say, that I am so unfit.

Have you ever thought there's so much more to life than just school, home and bed? Everyday seems the same to me in one way or another, but see, there are so many things we can do. I got enlighted in GP today. Knowledge is so wide and cool. There are like so many things I do not know. Yeah, so people, read something everyday.

Hey maybe i should write down something I have learnt for the day. That'll make me seize the day and not be in a complete daze in whatever I do. Even now when Im tyoing this. Three quarter for my brain is just stoned, one quarter is working now for this post. Some of it is used to hear how the people are singing in American Idol. Boy, its quite noisy.

Yes, I have no idea how to describe my day. Let me see. ...let me see what has happened today.. Im bad at recalling stuff.. My class is getting along quite alright now, thank God for that! And I should learn that people I can talk to are the people I should approach. For the others, I'll try to fit in -.-
Oh I just bathed and stuff and wasted time and hung around on the net. Its 2050. WWWWWHHHHHHHYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



How I wished time could just hold, and that I can be still and think.
Ah i better go do some revision. I need my whole brain to be working now. Half the time. only 1/5432132468255546 of my brain works when I do my work.

Working Brain Donation to the CHERYL fund. Thanks. Drop by my house for donation, or leave it in the nearest dustbin you find.

Toodles.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007
{ 10:13 PM on '' }


My mood is bad.
Today, I was a terrible kid. Seriously. Im so pissed with everything. Im so easily angered suddenly. Must be period. CRAP.

Okay so Im being idiotic cause I"ve signed up for like a gazillion CCAs and in the end im like uncertain of which i should join cause of the crazy training they have. I HATE IT! I HATE TRAININGS> WHY!! So that means i shouldn't go into any CCA right?


BUt htne again they say first 3 months is for J1's to try out what CCa they like. Can i just say i hate CCA's and I don't intend to join one? NO, cause your testimonial won't be that good.

WHAT IS THIS I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE AT ALL! I HATE MAKING DECISIONS! AAAHHHAARRGGHH!!! Im pissed. Cheryl is pissed. PiSsEd pIsSed.

Okay relax cool down. Yes, I've gotta decide whether i should go for ODAC/badminton/netball tmr. I thought about it actually and my only choice left is netball
Cause i heard ODAC trains like mad and its quite similar to Rangers in terms of outdoor activities and stuff. Badminton- I have to bring a racket! My racket is like lousy so that means over the months I have to buy a good racket to play, and that costs MONEY. NO.
Netball- Its free and I've played it before. Hello, they train like amd. And Im not sure whether I should join the same CCA as in sec school.

So, the morale of the story is, don't go for any tomorrow?





I have work to do and Im now on the computer. Tell me about it, JC MAKES ME MAD.

IM SO HAVING PMS. You don't have to remind me. I really hope I'd be cheery and happy by tmr or else, I'd smack you.

Thursday, January 11, 2007
{ 6:03 PM on '' }


Hello.

JC life is one big boogy. Is JC that tough? Ah with only less than two years to A levels, and less than a year to chinese A levels. Whoa, no wonder Singapore's education is one of the top! Man, now I know why students in JC's all look so sporty and fit. Their PE is like.... runnung all the way, Are they training for the standard chartered race or smth? For sports cca, it's worst. Who knows for badminton, they actually run 8 rounds around the track? Oh man. And ODAC, 12 times up and down the school! And this and that. Boy, I can't take it! I hate trainings, Seriously. Although I sound like im in like 3242379854820 sports cca, no, but hey, so tough!

AAAHHH, this is so depressing. I"ll just be cca-less. These days im like in emo mode, don't ask me why. Haha. Well, so how? What cca? Or would I just be cca-less? I can't stand the colour of how I look now. Its such a -.- colour. Haha. And i really feel like dying when i hear about how the various sports cca train. I really am one lazy big fat monster BOO BOO BOO! Im so depressed.

And one week already passed by. Double depressed. Oh no. Why!!!!!!!!!????!!! talking about living your life to the fullest, what is it actually? I want to fill my life with all sorts of adventurous stuff, but sadly, there's nth adventurous here. -.- I sound lame. Ah im in emo mode seriously. I"ll come back to you if I'm in a lighter mood. HAHA.

Lallalallaa. JC JC JC JC JC JC. IM SO OLD.

Monday, January 08, 2007
{ 11:24 PM on '' }


Hello.

First official day of school. Pretty boring. There's nothing much. Oh and i was a lil late as well. : Great way to start school huh!

I do miss KCP. I miss life there. I miss the canteen. I miss the teachers. I miss the laughter. I miss my lame class. Ahahhaaha.

Okay. So now with this new school, well, I just have to try to get used to it. Its quite hard to click with people sometimes. I've no idea how our friendship can last, don't you think so? Sometimes its just feels superficial.
Ah just make the best out of everything right?

Okay I better sleep soon or i'll be late again! Im tired!

Saturday, January 06, 2007
{ 1:59 PM on '' }


Yesterday was a tiring day for me.
I was so tired that I could actualy sleep on the floor.

So I think yesterday's orientation was rather good for me. Yeah. The games were somewhat better than the first day's one (definately), and when you participate, you'll feel the fun. YAY! It's hard to get closer with people cause they all have their own cliques around already with their sec school friends. Argh. This is an orientation people! To make new friends!

So Friday was the last day of the orientation. We had water games first. Yeah I was barely wet. Haha, and seriously, enthusiasm changes everything! So people, be enthu okay! Haha. Later we had mass dance. The partner thing. It was quite fun, but tiring as well! Boy I need to train those muscles. Haha.

Later was games again. There's no break! AAAHH. Playing freeze and melt with around forty people is fun. Haha. And I just cannot strategize anything. I just freeze and melt people any old how. What is this. So unprofessional. And I'm a sore loser. What has moulded me this way is the constant loses I've faced through the sixteen years in my life. Yeah. This sounds so pathetic but its close to being a fact I tell you. Yes tear for me! Haha.
Yeah, so playing the 'burn-down-the-opponents-string aka lifeline" game made me show my true colours for being a sore loser and a proud winner. Oh what a shame.

Missing games and being late for games sure wasn't good for me. I was like, why are we always late ah. Oh man Cheryl actually can express her unhappiness. Wow.
We also had a cheering competition later and yeah GAIA won! Btw, my faction name is GAIA! GAIA!

Spread the GAIA spread spread,
Shout like GAIA shout shout,
Spread the GAIA
Shout the GAIA
All the rest can go fly kite.
Fly kite fly kite,
All the rest can go fly kite
Fly kite fly kite
Later kena lightning strike
KA BOOM!

Yes and we won the cheering competition. Amazing.
The dancing queen and king. Oh man, they were all so good! They shake and move and whoa. Cool.
And there was the EYE CANDY prize, followed by Mr Hunk and Miss Pretty . Whoa. I can't believe that skinny legs short shorts fair skinned fox looking guy won. Haha. Oh ya and we also had this skit. Haha was really lame but hey, they got our point anyway. Seriously, guys are fun people. Haha. Okay not all, but generally. The skitters.

So the whole thing ended with a disco night. I was practically exhausted by all the jumping I wanted to just sit at the corner and meditate. Anyway, it is a meaningless way to actually pass time. I rather breathe some fresh oxygen outside. Ah, but whatever it is, the orientation was a success. SO THREE CHEERS FOR THE OGL'S! THREE CHEERS FOR J1's! THREE CHEERS FOR EVERYONE!

Thank God I had plenty of rest today. I really needed it. So now I'm here typing this. School starts at 9AM on monday. So school is starting. I got to be prepared. I wonder how it'll be like. I think when you're in JC, it'll be like a very individual thing for everyone. As it'll be a lecture-tutorial thing, I guess its hard to make friends with so many people.
About orientation, different people have different experiences. I've no idea whether I can truely be part of Nanyang. Aha, so weird. Do i miss KCP? My friends there? I'm numb.

Hmmm. Im just gonna enjoy myself however I can. Its SHOW TIME!
Btw, is dragon boat that exciting and fun?

Thursday, January 04, 2007
{ 11:00 PM on '' }


Second day of orientaion was pretty alright.
Yes yesterday i really sounded bitter about the whole group thingy right?
I think i still am to a certain extent. HAHAHA.

Okay we all went to sentosa to play. Yeah quite fun. The games were much more sensible and interesting than yesterday's. Seriously. Bravo.

The Orientation Group Leaders (OGLs) are all actually very nice and enthu. Good effort!!

So tomorrow is another day of cheers and DISCO DANCING (faints) wish me all the best! Yeah today was okay so I shall not criticise anything. Yeah. But you know the previous post was bitter indeed. Today was a tiring day. A long day. A hot day. A cheery day. An emo day.

Yes yes yes. I can't stand the feeling of envy. Kill me. Kill me. The feeling of inferiority. AAHH. Okay unfun.
Okay enthu not.
Okay Okay Okay.

Ah just hope tmr will be good. Im getting sick of cheering. My throat is getting worst now. Ooohh CHEERS and MORE CHEERS.
AM I too old for this? Haha. I am enthu enthu, I will rock you rock you. Oooooohhhhhh CHERYL!

HAhahaha, feeling loony now. Ooh. School. Tomorrow. Orientation. Tired. Tired. Dead.

Feel my pain. That's all I can say.
Well, i realised is not how fun or what it is, but the friendships made instead. Well, that doesn't mean fun is not the main issue cause it IS! AAAHH . I WANT FUN! FUN COME TO ME!

Lai ah lai ah lai ah lai ah lai ah lai ah lai ah lai ah lai ah lai.


Plus i forgot to add. We had the dance today again. Man. Okay I have to admit doing the dance is quite entertaining. But its like you're in a moment of "Hey hey look at me, see how i'm like acting cool' kinda thing. HAhahha. When I see the others dance, I can't help but feel this way. The way they shake and move. Horror. Lol. Im sick of Britney already. Haha.

Haha. I should stop ranting about orientation. Haha.
Im tired now. Short post for sleepy eyes. (?)

Im gonna SLEEP!

Wednesday, January 03, 2007
{ 9:21 PM on '' }


HAPPY START OF NEW SCHOOL DAY.

Yes it sure sounds pretty off. Ah, ITS THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! TO A NEW SCHOOL! TO A SCHOOL OF MY SECOND CHOICE. NANYANG! HIP HIP HOORAYYY!!

Yeah right. I'll tell you what happened on this memorable day. Memorable...................?

Tuesday night: It took me quite a long time to tuck in, maybe because of the first-day-of-school excitment thing.

TODAY: So yeah, I woke up at 6.20AM. Reporting time: 7AM. Thank God Nyjc is near. So i quickly prepared and arrived there on the dot or so. Yeah. Man there were many many many many people. Oh my goodness, really, a SEA of people. Haha.

So I talked to the people beside me at first. Yeah, i thought they were quiet people. Rather quiet outwardly but still they talked. Haha. So that's good. Oh man and I was busy insulting everything that happened. How lame were the cheers done by the J2's and how cheesy the emcee was. Haha. I was the meanie. Oohh yeah.

Seriously, imagine yourself in a foreign school and are told to settle down in the hall. Admist all the people walking and talking and settling down, the J2's decide to cheer.
And you are like.."What are they doing! Eeee....so lame."
Haha. Sad but true fact. Cause, you're in am unfamiliar environment, nobody knows each other, and when people try to lighten up the mood with cheers, you feel your hair stand. Seriously. Thank you, but I would prefer a silent and a formal welcome instead. Haha.

Its always like that at first. Ah obviously I had to get used to it. And i was enthu! YAY! Not the ultimate kind of enthu and relatively more enthu than the rest, Haha.Three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for Cheryl..........

Okay the worst part of the programme was the ice breakers. Well, I thought the games were not interesting, and draggy. Also, there were too few games. I was complaining to my group about it as usual. Really. Other groups played games which obviously looked more fun than ours. I just looked at them play while my group was currently playing something else. Im so evil.

During lunch break, everyone was bored and sleepy. We couldn't wait to go home. And I realised, I cannot talk to people. I only can go on to really general questions, and not in depth. Am I so boring. Man I hate this. Maybe I don't have people skills. I can't talk to people? Im an alien? I think so.
Oh man this sounds so depressing. Who likes to lack something? If someone told me that I think I'll just punch the person. HAHAHAHAHA. Yeah right. Still, its sickening to hear criticisms about yourself but everyone has to accept it.
Yeah in your heart you'll be like so angry with the person but outwardly you're agreeing with the person. Weird?

Hmm. oh ya games. Games. Games. Games are supposed to be fun and relatively long right? Lol. okay some were really redundant games. But others were still quite fun. Ah fun is really what we make it out to be. I know that. But sometimes, when you're just feeling unenthusiastic about everything, everything is lame and lame and lame and unfun.

Yes yes. Oh ya after games was mass dance. Okay DANCE. Their having some dance fever or smth, but every JC does it right? Argh, why do girls and guys appear to be the same? They can hold each other and dance freely. Whoa freedom? You call this freedom? AHaha.
Im just being a pig.
The word 'open' to different people are of different standards. Yeah, so call me closed. Haha.

Yeah Im just being a pig.

I always ask, its just too much of a coincidence. Wherever I'm placed, wherever group, team or what, people there are not like what you expect, compared to other groups.
Other groups may have fun people who actually talks and have some coolness or whatever, but......
Ah, I have to accept it. See im being so superficial. But seriously, some people really are the more enthu ones or at least the participating kinds.

Say it, its just me. it's just me.

Cheryl shut up. shut up.

My post sounds so depressing haha. Btw, Orientation ended at 6.45PM. Dead tired. But bathes just keeps you fresh and alive. Plus food. Haha. So tomorrow we'll be going sentosa. Okay we'll see how it goes, hopefully, it'll be FUN!

Btw, I think im a disgusting superficial evil idiot.

Haha. That was a four in one description of Cheryl. Scared? Afraid?



Like real.

Okay this post may sound a bit bad to a certain extent, but hey, I like my group okay :)

Tuesday, January 02, 2007
{ 12:13 PM on '' }


HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A brand new year, 2007!
It's gonna be an exciting one. Yes. Everything's gonna be great.

Hopefully, first three months will be fun and fufilling. Im still not quite prepared for tomorrow which marks the first day of being seventeen,(I just turned 16 for barely 2 months). Okay more so being in year1. So fast! Im going bag hunting after this. Hahahhhaa. Should I? Should I not?

I should la.

So, watchnight was great. All th testimonies truely reflect how great is our God we're serving. Really, this 2007, I want to be a stronger and focused person. YAY! I need to work on my resolutions more throughly though, haha.

Be God's history maker! ER's theme for 2007.
Yes. Yes. Yes.

Yesterday, everyone from AR to RA went to East Coast! The group was big and yay, so fun. Kayaking was great! The sea,dirty and salty but okay, the sky, so blue and high.... Haha.. Great experience for me! Despite the aching arms when kayaking, I still had fun watching other people capsize. HAHA.

Hey I got a bad sore throat on the first day of the new year! AAAHH.. How bad is this. But hey I still can talk, but its just disturbing when your throat feels like there's a lump of whatever stuck in it.

I got to brush up my English. Science or Arts stream in future? Hmmm. What combinations? Hmmm..
Have fun first la.

Okay gtg now, wishing everyone a fantastico 2007! Make use of everyday WISELY and live life to the FULLEST for JESUS! YAYYYYY!!!!

I bid goodbye.

Cheryl

Female.
19.
Loves freedom but doesn't treasure it
Basically still a kid crying for momma


Loves

To be accepted
To belong
To be embraced
Yay.